too fast to catch up on life.

i haven't been posting alot about the happenings. yea, my life's going at a pace too fast for me to record the history down. and i think i'm deteriorating at expressing stuffs. so yea.

everyday's been cramped up with studies, studies, and MORE STUDIES. it's the prelims this week and the coming week, until thurday, but i believe everyone will somehow start to loosen up after tuesday's Additional Mathematics and Pure Chemistry Paper 2s. yes, there's a 's' behind the '2'. i believe we're going to have SO MUCH FUN tackling the papers. UGH.

many people have been sick these few days. people i've come in contact with. i wonder why i'm not sick YET. isabel missed the whole week of prelims, xinying missed everything except the paper on tuesday, and bernice missed the physics despite studying, and helping us study so hard. sighs. WASTED./ other than that, i guess the other side where the boys are, well, they still came for the papers. but. sick nonetheless. hahaa! if i was destined to be sick, please let me get sick within this period and not during the o's or else i'll really DIE.

been reading some books too. the imaginary friend book is quite nice. SORRY BRENDA I FORGOT TO PASS IT TO YOU YESTERDAY. OMG. lols! can tell she's really wanting to read that book. haha. now i'm reading this book 'Just Beyond the Clouds' by Karen Kingsbury. quite interesting. it's about this teacher teaching adults who had Down Syndrome and all. borrowed 'A Bend in the Road' by Nicholas sparks too, but gave asnira to read it first. i can't wait to read that one too!

oh yea, i forgot to mention about racial harmony. our class had the most number of people wearing ethnic costumes! WOOHOO! and the award? 90BUCKS WORTH OF VOUCHER. FROM THE SCHOOL BOOKSTORE. yikes! at least popular's a better choice la, come on. zzz. Mani was like so suave on that day me and isabel literally melted. whahahaas! okay, i think isabel was the one who really melted. but it's been fun, we went all around the school taking pictures, despite of the 1m contact rule everyone has to follow in due of the H1N1 situation. i can't wait for the pictures!

pictures are posted in my facebook, so take a look if you want, cos' i'm lazy to post it in here. AND I HAVE NO TIME! been studying and making notes in preparation for my pure chemistry paper 2. ugh, i hope it helps. i guess i don't have much problems with chemistry, ALL THANKS TO MDM JO. but the problem of math arises. if only we still had mdm nora, i wouldn't be suffering so much now, but a balanced suffering of math everyday. which is, i guess, worth it. lols.

ookay, i'm going to get back to serious mugging. the house is in so much peace now. perfect for mugging. gotta make use of this. WHAHAHAAS!

a week has passed...

hello. it's finally the end of term 3 week 1 for us. god, i don't think i've worked so hard all my life before! lessons starts at 8, finishes at 5. with only 1hour and 15minutes break time. seems just like work, but minus the salary.

been doing revision for POA, math is still progressing on the way. i may need to work abit harder for math. sighs! chem is still alright. physics? I DON'T KNOW. last year's prelim papers are pretty demoralising. mr low just came back from LOA with a black face that i've come to dislike since the start of last year. mdm jo says he's concerned about us, and i'm quite touched. haha! humans is still as good as before. i got like, 23 out of 25 for my focus SBQ test! woots! english, SHITTY. but we're going to merge with bernice's class! YAY!

chinese. just had chinese oral today. i guess it went pretty well, cos' it's about the youth olympics and stuffs, so i had things to say. was quite a sad thing i didn't start and end my reading aloud really well. other than that, i guess everything's fine(: now i just have to nail my listening compre and accept my fate. lols!

it's been tough. and i'm sure the roads ahead will be tougher. i have to start revising for AMATH, damn. and start chionging on past year papers. there seemed so much things to do, i didn't even know where and how to start. but i have to find a way. i can't waste anymore time!

i'm addicted to the channel8 drama, the ultimatum's theme song. i remembered i was doing my sciences on monday night after a gruelling first day at school. then i heard this song, and i literally broke down. lols! cos' the last time i heard this song was at my ahma's house. i love it there you know. it's like a shelter and a place to hide from all your responsibilities after a frightful and stressful week. sighs, i wished i could stay with ahma. i wonder how will life be if i did? i'd be more happy, and cheery at home, i guess. i've been too quiet nowadays at home. and i hate the silence around me.

been planning very enthusiastically for the long-awaited shuhui's birthday bash. tthe crazy plan i thought about few months ago obviously didn't work out, as the highness eventually died down and soon enough no one was bothering about that crazy plan of mine. so we decided to do something else. our aim: to make shuhui cry. IT'S LIKE SO EASY! haha! birthday bash on monday, update details when free. hopefully i'll get lots of pictures!

oh yea, tomorrow's mani's birthday. we bought a liverpool soccer ball for him and buried it deep under loads of snacks. i loved his response! when we took out the huge box, he was like 'what the fish!' then when he opened it and saw the boxed 'filled' with snacks, he was going 'oh my god.' then we called him to dig, and when he saw the ball he was like 'oh shit oh shit I LOVE IT.' woots! hooray for us! one more birthday down! i love birthdays! even if it's not mine, i'm so happy of mani's reaction! hahaha!

that's all. i hope i'll be able to cope with my studies and all the crazy things that are happening now. and i seriously hope school won't close. if not that's it for my olevels.

dance, subaru! STUDY, GEKTENG!

today's paper one was alright i guess. then i had a headache and paper2 wasn't done quite well. can't really think. got mental block and all. zzz.

well, zan didn't win best kiss afterall, ashley tisdale snagged best female breakout, which is fine by me, zac DID win best male perf. the others? twilight got them all-.- vanessa was so pretty, and zac was alright. the state of his hair minused off a few points. HAHAHA! but they were so cute!

some comic strip i made on my own:

zac:best male who?
vanessa:YOU! YOU!! YOU!!!

zac: what? me? ME?!
vanessa: YES! GO, GO, GO!!!

zac: wow, so it's really ME, huh?

vanessa: I TOLD YA!

---------and they lived happily after. AND AFTER. AND AFTER.----------
AND FOREVER!

one more:(this is not made up. look at vanessa's expression)

host: if you voted for zac efron put your hands in the air!

me: oh zac, you're such a lovely dork!

okay. no more. FOR REAL.

okay, so that's all for the award show.

at late afternoon we(bernice, huiting, xinling, mandy, YJ and me) went to AMK hub to watch DANCE, SUBARU! really nice show. money spent was so worth it i was so happy after the movie. i didn't know a dance could affect me so much it made me cry a river of tears. and til now i didn't even know the reason for crying. really nice show. if time allows, EVERYONE should watch it.

although the poster seems rather normal looking, it's really worth the watch. affected me a great deal. lols! I SIMPLY LOVE IT! and i just cried and cried and cried.

so i guess that's it for now. holiday extra lessons starts tomorrow, so i'm going to get real busy again soon. and i have to do my english, for goodness sake!

so that's all, til i have the time again(:

life's been busy

YEPS. really busy. i didnt even have time to watch my NEW HSM3 DVD OK! hahha! just to update. hmms. school's been really fun. especially with the ongoing service learning trips to AWWA and recently, KL. hopefully these activities will secure me a place in child psychology in poly. i've been really inspired to be one after reading the book 'daniel isn't talking'. a very fun and touching read. i felt very lucky to have borrowed this book, having to literally pluck it out from the librarian's trolley when she's shelving the books. i'll never forget the story. and daniel, of course. someday i'll buy all these books. and keep. hahaha. i even made a silent vow to myself to collect books written by torey hayden. i can tell she's good. hahaha.

the trip to AWWA SMILES was a really fulfilling one. i've been so glad to have participated in this service learning. gave me an insight to how special schools work. and getting in contact with children with special needs motivated me to work harder to get into my desired course. i want to make a difference! hahaha! there was a boy named joel who was really friendly. should to everyone with arms wide open 'HELLO EVERYONE! I'M JOEL!' SUPER CUTE. made people do silly things too. ahaha. very entertaining. even mrs lee said he has very good leadership capabilities. WHAHAHAS! i went towards this table where a number of pupils were doing puzzles and writing. that's when i met rong zhen and matthew. rong zhen is quite shy, didn't dare to look me in the eye. i was quite nervous myself too. this particular girl later became very attached to isabel, dragging her and her hurt ankle everywhere. it's quite a funny scene la, that isabel. matthew didn't really talk much too. i realised these students didn't like to look into people's eyes when they communicate. but it's ok. at least they acknowledge my presence by replying;D then i went to play UNO with 2 wheelchair-bound pupils with the SMU seniors. it's fun. best UNO game i've ever played in my whole life. ethan came to join us. he's also a wheelchair bound, with talking disabilities too. but he's cute, and very coorperative. i suppose he should be a very easy child to take care of. then matthew came and disturbed. haha. it was both shocking and happy when he came nudging at me demanding 'JIE JIE BAO BAO!' and eased himself up to my laps. i've never felt this sense of SIMPLICITY before. it's very difficult to express my feelings la. and haha, although i'm quite nervous, it's really a miracle i didn't drown in my tears at that moment. my nose and eyes were already turning sour once i stepped inside the room. so overall. a very very well spent day with these children. i'm so looking forward to giving them the perfect sports carnival on coming monday. I CAN'T WAIT!

after that we accompanied isabel to the sinseh to rub her sore ankle. to be more precise i accompanied her in. lols. another unforgettable event in that particular day. i myself was also very very scared. hahaha. can't tell how our positions are like, but when she's in pain she'll take my hand and SQUEEZE, and LEAN INTO ME, then my hand will lean on the wall for support. the sinseh must have laughed about it. and through that, i also come to know how acupuncture and the heating things worked. all thanks to isabel, her ankles, and hmms. DANIEL? haha. he was the one who isabel crashed into and fell as a result/

there's also another overseas service learning trip. not to yunnan, SADLY. but in KL. equally fun. through AWWA i also came to understand that the location doesn't matter, what matters most is that you are having fun and the time of your lives. life's good, tests and examinations are just to make things more complicated in this simple world that everyone came to take it for granted. argh. HAHA. MY quote of the day. >.< I CAN'T WAIT FOR KL AND THE FUN WE'LL BE HAVING. we'll make our senior year more meaningful. sighs. such memories will last me for a lifetime. my god i'm being emotional. it's not the time. haha.

education wise. hmms. i love mdm jo. she's such an inspiring teacher that the class has come to respect. i'm sure to give her A BIG HUG when i come back to school to get my results next year. NEXT YEAR. SIGHS. so near yet so far. she's real good. another reason why i came to not bear with my secondary school afte graduation. sighs. i hope my results won't disappoint her.

mr radha's cute too. hahaha. his jokes are lame, but entertaining. i've started tuition with uncle lawrence. it's worth it la. haha!

ok yea. and friends. i've came down with flu this week. SHUHUI MADE HERBAL TEA FOR ME UPON HEARING I DON;T HAVE LIANG CHA AT HOME. made me cry., haha. ellis was too good to me. haha. helped me with my pencil case and all. lols. tell me to get well soon too. must have not got used to me being so quiet ba. whahhaas! even kames asked me whether i was angry yesterday when the flu was on it's worst. haha. truth is, i just looked fierce when i'm not smiling. that's why i always keep a cheerful front. but i just can't help to break my 'practice' yesterday. flu's hitting me hard. i'm recovering. thanks to xinling, i've coughed out alot of tan2 today. it's gross man. hahaha.

ok that's all. i'll update maybe after my AWWA trip. when i get all sad and teary. lols!

a quote from zac efron on trying to maintain a normal life:
''True, but well I can’t complain, because it’s part of my job. I wanted what’s happening to me. You just have to seize the day and enjoy it, because one day the craziness will die down anyway. This is the life I’ve always wanted, I made my own destiny, I’ve been passionate and worked really hard to get what I have now. So today, I’m very happy about my life, there’s no way you’ll see me whining cos it’s a bit 'complicated' for the moment''

it's gonna be a tough road ahead.

i'm not feeling too good now. especially after what i've done. although i understood what i've copied from xinling's work, i don't think i can do the questions without her help. or her WS's help. sighs. i hate copying. and i don't feel good. but i guess not copying mr radha's answers BEFORE i figure out the question isn't really a very good idea. ARGH. i screwed up math. that's the only thing i could say now. i only have a very vague idea of how to do trigo. and i ain't happy about it. maybe i should go to the library more. i found out i'm able to focus and study alot better in the library than at home. and i think i'm going to get an mp3 to go along with my plan. haha.

i'm losing it. i'm losing the focus. everything went well yesterday. the day before yesterday. but i just can't get my things done today. most probably one of the reasons should be the ever so discouraging math lesson i had today, but i just can't do anything well today. and it isn't mr radha's fault. he's a good teacher, except i don't really understand his accent. or is it because i didn't go to the library? sighs. the library is such a good place. i'm glad woodlands has such a big library with so much studying places to go.

i miss mdm nora alot. i've come to realise that mdm nora contributes a very big part to my distinctions for both a and e math. i don't think i can ace the subjects this year as well as i did last year. the road ahead suddenly seemed so blur. my table's in a mess, with all the math WS, and i don't know what to do about it. tmr's double period. BUT SO WHAT?

god i really need to get my focus back and get my head in the game.

i'm tired, but i'll work hard. TOMORROW.

new targets... new life.

hellos. this week is filled with confusion, uncertaincy, twisting of the guts, and finally relieve. alot of things were happening at the same time, too much that i don't think i can handle it. but i'm glad i'm slowly getting the picture, and adjusting to my new lifestyle in the preparation of my o'levels that i'm going to work hard on. i just hope everything will come to an end soon. then i'll have time to relax and unwind... ahh~ but it's too early to say these things ba. LOLS

we were already high-ing on wednesday about how prom should be; about what we should wear, and preparing a HSM show for everyone. haha. it's good that prom actually happens a week later after o's and not on the day of the last paper. i can spend this one week to shop for prom dresses! WOOTS! it will be fun! hahaha! i'm sooo looking forward to prom. joel even said to book a suite in the hotel we will be having prom in for the class. haha! it will be so fun la. and it's like so long time away. and we haven't even taken our prelims, not to say the real o levels, and now we're already thinking about prom. lols OUR MOTIVATION. HAHA!

also, the o'levels results release was on monday. the media even came, but i didn't see snippets of our school in the news. bleah. it was quite an emotional sight for us to watch. and having this to be the first time i watched the whole 'show' and that the seniors that i'm close with were all graduating and gone, sighs. i became emotional la. but i'm very very proud to say that all my seniors had the job well done. serves for a kind of MOTIVATION too. i hope i'll be one of the listed names on the powerpoint slides when they announced OUR results next year. i have to work hard for it!

yes i have something to work on. haha. this also makes me think more about what i want to do in the future; what my future should be; how i want my future to be. HMMS. it's really a very tough decision, especially when i've got a whooping a2 for my chinese. although i've already decided to drop higher chinese, but the thought process i went through this week was really not a good experience for me. suddenly the whole concept of 'my future' seems so blur and scary.it was the time when i'm in between dropping and not dropping higher chinese, and i'm not afriad to tell you i've really done alot of thinking and spent 1 sleepless night just because of this issue. this also reminds me of high school musical. haha. when troy doesn't know what he wants. i felt what he was feeling at that time, and i was lucky i didn't have a 'gabriella' to think about. lols./ and i'm beginning to like the song 'scream'. really reflected my feelings when i had no idea of what i should do; of what is the right thing to do.

i'm glad my parents were open to my options. they gave me absolute freedom to choose my path, of dropping or not. sometimes i wished they would just be more insistent on what they want me to do. but it's respect they gave me, the respect that i came to treasure and understand of. it's really scary making all these decisions, having to know that the final decision will change your whole life, it's really frightening. i'm beginning to grasp the so called 'hidden' meaning of hsm le. there's this conversation of troy and his father about the college he should go into. 'YOU RAISED ME UP SO THAT I CAN MAKE MY OWN CHOICES, AND I HAVE TO MAKE THEM' i finally understand what it means. what is the point of having your future being planned ahead by someone else? i'd rather bear the consequences of making the wrong deicisons than to have my future being planned by someone else. especially a future i didn't want. and i'm glad my parents supported my decisions, and also giving me opinions that worth alot, and encouragements that i will often need. AWWW. THANKS PA MA. LOLS WHAT A GOOD MOVIE HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL IS.

tilnow, i don't think i've regretted dropping out of higher chinese. there's already time for me to do my own things, and my catching up. and i'm confident to say that i've really used the time wisely. except it's very tiring. life in the senior year is tiring. i just hope i'll adapt quickly and do my thing. having to drop higher chinese really lightens my load. i can literally feel 'lighter' haha. except i keep eating. lols!

wells, so i hope everything will be alright ba, extra lessons are starting, and we still have choir syf to chiong. and not forgetting i'm still in the midst of preparing both my piano grade 8 theory AND practical. i hope i can manage my time well and have everything done to the best of my capabilities.

i also have to thank people who wished me happy birthday and the presents. i really appreciated it very much. it's been a pleasure meeting everyone, having fun with you all and blah. i've come to know that there's nothing more pleasant than having your loved ones and friends to give you their well-wishes, support and encouragements and their crap. it's the letters that i came to like the most though, out of all the presents that i've received. honestly, not even ZANESSA, can make me smile as wide as i did when i read through those letters. at least now i know what i have is true, and it's all from the heart. THANK YOU EVERYONE. afterall, it's YOU who had made me who i am today. SERIOUSLY HOW BETTER CAN MY SWEET 16TH BIRTHDAY GET?! HAHA!

i have this show that i'm starting to get obssessed over. it's GHOST WHISPERER. wells, i've been watching the episodes on-and-off from the first season, but the plot really gets better and better. i'm hooked. OFFICIALLY. YESTERDAY. an episode when merlinda's husband jim died. sighs. really touching. got me on the verge of tears. but it's kind of lucky that merlinda can still see him when he's dead. haha. i'll keep on watching the show. woots! and maybe watching the whole 4 seasons when my olevels end. haha

so that's it for now, BYE BYE!

inspired.

i've come to listening to more of CORRINNE MAY'S songs. haha. another talent from singapore. but yeai came to realise i liked her songs; how her lyrics went. inspiring lyrics that i'm now fond of. it's just crazy how someone can write songs like that. she must have felt for alot. haha. i don't think i could do that. hehe. but maybe i'll try. just MAYBE.

hmms. these few days were such a breeze la. not much going on. i've been buried in my NORA ROBERTS books since. completed reading 2, now starting on the 3rd one i've just borrowed yesterday. WRL seemed to have increased their numbers of book now, i realised. another silly aim of mine: to finish reading her MacGregor series. reading on the 3rd book now, and have 3 more to go. (provided i can find those books. HOPEFULLY. )

i've given the japan form to my parents. and they haven't give it back to me, nor even an answer. i'm disappointed. i'm, hmms. IRRITATED. ANNOYED. and i don't want to continue anymore.

i've clarified my doubts in youth class. so i hope nothing will go wrong for my sciences papers. i'll keep my fingers crossed. i've been doing the papers that Miss Wong gave. it's a lucky thing answers were given. at least i can work at my own pace and not rush for datelines and all. these datelines and all stopped me from doing my work. haha. i know i'm wierd. but now having to work on my own pace and check for the answers myself. hmms. i guess that's what i've wanted all along. this study plan actually suits me. or made me comfortable with it. hmms. i hope i can have good results ba.

I'VE ADDED NEW PHOTOS. SCROLL DOWN. XD

hellos~ wondering why i have time to post? sighs. bad thing happened. that's why i HAVE the time to actually crap here. about 3 more papers to go. JIAYOUS! wahh math... i dread the results so much. wells. came to crap about friday. so. ya. err.

friday. had loads of fun after school at YL's house. we weren't studying but having pillow fights at YL's room la. haha so fun. Shuhui came too. i think she's the reason why we had so much fun. Bernice dunno tie hair how many times le lor. haha. then we played twister. i so suck at that game. Boon Yain keep blocking my way lor. >.<

more next time. have to go YL's to study! xD

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more pictures from my phone... o_O

hi there~ i'm now quite focused on my studies... yeps. studies/ but i'm still feeling quite hopeless for my science. but somehow the EOY 2006science paper given to us today for somewhat a mock exam was kind of encouraging... a had desirable results.... MCQ 27/30. WOOTS! haha. but i heard last year's paper was an easy one. so... hmms. hopefully it applies to this year's too. =) today was sort of a "test-day" or something. Music we had an assignment. then chinese hu laoshi gave us gonghan to do... then science we had this paper. oh yah, we were also given a part of the EOY 2005 literature paper. man, the prose was difficult. i don't even know what it's talking about?? haha feeling quite hopeless about it actually. didn't do much of that paper during that one hour. so did everyone. but the teacher doesn't even care. so why must we care so much? afterall i guess he "teaches" because he's a teacher. and leaves after the bell ring. wth? the teacher's the 1st one to leave the class... faster than the students sia. i know. wth./ better not kena him as our english teacher next year. YIKES! *** no offence***


bernice was to stay back with weiting for this math buddy thing. i stayed on with her while the rest went to YL's first. wells i guess this was the most well spent tuesdays of all tuesdays i had. =) after the math "remedial" me and bernice went to YL's. 1st song i heard: INNOCENCE by AVRIL LAVIGNE. haha i never knew YL has this song in her phone lor... zzz and i just found out Bernice also like this song!!! LOLS i am again INTO this avril lavigne thing again. nahh this will not last long... just that i've now succeeded uploading them into my mp3... MUAHAHA. after eating we went into YL's room and started our MUGGING. haha. i seemed to be more focused when studying with friends. especially with SERIOUS friends. there's no way i can study in front of Shuhui. haha i get influenced by my friends easily somehow... haha yes, today's serious revision we're doing. and i can proudly say that we have made use of our time WISELY. more of this. we'll have. and i'm seeing a new light in studying now... my plan: to study together, but memorizing should be done at most a day before the exam, so that the notes can still be fresh in the head. yes. and i'm going to achieve that. HUAHUAHUA. and i've realised something. i can actually manage to study even when my mp3 is blasting off in my ears! lols probably because those music are more pleasing to the ears than bernice and mandy's "loud-memorizing-notes" voices.

grabbed "innocence" and "qiang qiang" mp3 on YL's phone before going back... heez. and of course i had to sacrifice somthing... and after a discussion or somewhat a debate with Bernice, i've actually decided to get rid of "you are the music in me" by GABRIELLA AND TROY. :( cos I CAN'T POSSIBLY DELETE EVERYDAY AND I GOTTA GO MY OWN WAY away!!! there's absolutely NO WAY!!! WHAHAHAS. sent Bernice to the 962 bus stop while Boon yain and Mandy went home together. cousins came just now to play candles. and i was like wth? i was forced to play(but eventually i didn't), got hit on the arm AT THE SAME SPOT for SOME couple of time. and yea... nagged to eat, nagged to bath and blah3. hmms. LIFE COULDN'T BE BETTER? HAHA and lastly HAPPY MOONCAKE FESTIVAL!( although i dont eat them...) >.<