Endings.

Perfect? Happy?

Ah, I don't care. What matters most, I think, is how much you've taken away from it. What have you learnt? What have you experienced? What are the new encounters? New people?

Doing the annual conclusion now seems rather appropriate - I've completed all my assignments (like finally!), all except one module have wrapped up, souvenirs given. I can't believe tomorrow's really the last day of my 1st year in poly. Seriously, how did I get here?

Okay, I have to admit, in the midst of YOG, elearning weeks and vacations, our holidays are SUPER LONG. They are probably as long as our schooling days. But well, it's been a fun ride. Met new people, no matter how much I hate about opening myself up to more people and all, I have to. And it all comes down to those who have stayed; those that I've chosen to stay with. Can't really imagine life without friends, so here's to Mawar, Yana, Hafiza, Evangeline, Aisyah and Raihanna! It's been such an interesting year yaw!

It's so good to still have old friends like Shuhui and gang. I loved that we still made a point to keep in contact, host stayovers, celebrate birthdays and all that. Making a point to still meet up and catch up with each other's lives! (No matter how different they have all become...) It's so wonderful we still interact and gossip and yack like those good ol' secondary school days, when we're still in that pure innocent lives of ours. Simple sweet and happy. Those days are always one of the best moments of my life.

Me Yana and MAwar had this so-called end of semester celebration today. Karaoke was too expensive and we settled for a movie instead. Oh my, we had so much fun! And I laughed so loudly in the cinema, but I don't care. Somehow, it reminded me of the days where me and Isabel will always be the dramamamas of the whole cinema.

Attachment has also come to an end. Mixed feelings - that's what I call it. I often wonder how it would be like if we actually stayed on at Kindercare. But I stopped thinking already. Sigh, it's always like this, it's always when that something in your life is about to disappear, that you begin to regret for all the negative feelings you once had at first. It has always been like that for me. Ah but now, I'll miss the kids soooo much. It's such a pity I only get to know the mature K2 kids towards the last 2 weeks of my attachment. I felt soooo bad for not being able to do the art lesson for everyone last Tuesday. I think this will be one of the regrets of my whole life. I wonder if the kids will miss me? Or even remember me? I don't think so.

I think I'm gonna name my future daughter Caitlin. Or Kaitlyn. Oh, and Arielene too. Or Annabelle. Haha.

And how can I forget sons? Jayden will be on the top of my list and Asher and...?!?!

There were once soo much words and feelings in my head, but I don't know why it has all gone to where it seemed impossible to locate.

I think I'll just continue to go with the flow. Be more confident. And contented. Don't complain too much! Everything has its own good and bad, depends on how you see it. And all these memories? Stored and locked inside my head for as long as I live.

I'm gonna go have my beauty sleep soon, late class tomorrow! YAY!

Just keep swimming, just keep swimming~~~

my life would suck without you!

today - or should I say yesterday - was the last tutorial session with our lovely Ms Lavina. Awesome lecturer, she is. You've got to be in her class to understand. I'm gonna miss doing those songs and watching kiddy videos and all her pop-up books. She even bought swiss rolls that was flown from Holland as a treat! Damn nice I tell you. Hermes even shot an advertisement with it. Will upload the videos during the weekends;)

We went for a tour in Australia today! It was so cool, hahhaa! The driving thing reminds me of Glee's Forget You video. I had lots of fun! I didn't even remember doing all these things in preschool last time. But it was FUN FUN FUN!

We ordered pizzas for the party and all, sang songs and recorded videos. Hehehe! I bet the ECH year 1s who did songs for Ms Lavina will be the mega stars on her iphone! Had some glitches here and there, hahaha, but everything was fine I guess. I had so much quality time I forgot about all my worries and everything. Just the happy and cheery me, for this 2 short hours.

Sighs. Creatures like us - can I relate to all females? - sentimental kinds, if you get me. Ahhh, I don't know. I'll miss her classes for sure, just like how I would miss Secondary school. It's the same feeling I had on graduation day last year. The feeling of longing and a little hint of melancholy.

2010 has been fairly good to me. It's ending soon too, ugh. Soon I'll be year 2 and there comes all the stress again. Well I hope Ms Lavina will teach us again! HOPEFULLY PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!

As usual, time flies when you're having fun.

Here's to memories and cameras which capture those moments forever.

friends for life.

Yesterday was totally uncalled for. First, my supervision. Next, Zanessa went for a break. I practically hated most of yesterday.

Except for this
i admit to being sulky and emo most of the time when walking around with the ladies. See we got ourselves another group identity! UGH, I'm just worried la, I'm sorry. I keep telling myself to enjoy this day and think about other things when I get home. But just couldn't. Luckily implementation today was alright. In fact, it was A MILLION TIMES better.

Okay la, was super worried. And nervous. It's like going for piano practical exams all over again, now the feeling was extended to 1 day. WTH right. Really felt like giving up yesterday. Cried and cried. Heh.

Well I'm glad I'm better now.

Leaving on a Jet Plane.

What a familiar song. I remember doing this song on the guitar for our music assessment in Sec 2. Now this song held so much more meaning and memories.

Today's the last session of Performing Arts lecture with Ms Lavina, and SHE BROUGHT HER KIDS OMGOMG! Super cute, they really look like her, especially the eyes. I gaurantee when they smile together, it will be copy and paste faces. If you get what I mean.

So it's such a fun day, cos' my day started out right, nothing's supposed to get in the way. Haha! Watched Wee-Sing Sillyville videos and all, really silly and funny. I was so crazy you won't know I slept for less than 4 hours the night before! Oh, this reminds me of the cookies Ms Lavina made! YES! SHE MADE COOKIES FOR THE WHOLE ECH YEAR 1s! Whoa, so damn very the nice! I ate a lot, I practically stuffed them in my mouth HAHAHAHA opps.

Mawar said I had high sugar intake thus the high-ness. But whatever! I enjoyed every bit of it! We even danced outside after the class when T03 did their performance. OMG Lady Marmalade brings back lots of great memories too! It's really unbelieveable how a song, or even a scent! can bring back so much memories in the past. Good memories. It's like re-living them all over again, and building the memories and piling them up as they get more and more.

Call me the Memory Keeper.

And so there's another awesome memory to add on for the song Leaving on a Jetplane. Ms Lavina sung the song to us! While playing the Ukelele! AWWW SERIOUSLY I WILL MISS HER LOTS MAN, and I swear I didn't ever ever sleep in her classes before. NOT EVER! IT'S THAT FUN AND ENTERTAINING! Those people sitting at the back during lectures should get a feel of how it's like sitting in the first 3 rows. Not that we have THAT much people-.-

HAFIZA EVEN CRIED. That's one video I will keep it for life. swear my life over it. Not gonna share it online or anything like that. It's very personal ya know!

GOD, I hate goodbyes. I almost cried too, it's so touching. Cos you see, in poly, sometimes, the lecturers don't give a damn. They just do their jobs and go. For us to have such a good relationship with this current lecturer, I think it's really 难得。

and so, we're gonna PARRTAYYYY COMING THURDAY DURING TUTORIAL! Last one, So sad. But I will take lots of pictures and everything! Memory keeper what(:

Then I'll upload everything during the break. Excluding the performance by Ms Lavina. And after that crybaby Hafiza with her tears. Hehe!

Time for assignments again! What a dumb thing to do now! HAHAHAHA!

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Oh yeah, just to be fair, PLAY TUTORIAL was fun too. We went on a bear hunt and searched for puzzle pieces in the 'rivers', 'caves', 'stepping stones', 'mud', and everything. Studying in ECH really makes you relive and go back to your childhood years and everything. Except those memories will be etched in your heart more deeply than when you're young and... EGOISTIC?

Brings me back to PD. Low attendance, WHATEVER. I know the 3 things that i value most. They are PEACE, HAPPINESS AND QUALITY RELATIONSHIPS. And no one can tell me that they aren't the most important things, nor can they convince me that I'm wrong about how i feel towards life. Cos' it's my life and I know best. Heh!

play not equal debate

MY AWESOME IMPROMPTU DEBATE TEAM!


For play today we had this debate thing thing where we have to research and all that in class and carry out debate session ON THE SPOT.

One word for it: NERVE-WRECKING!

Reminded me of the days we had our debates in Sec 2 where I was the third speaker and had to speak with a mike and hold my cue cards and throw them once I'm done and talking so fast because I spent half of my time on rebuttals being the 3rd speaker and all. THOSE WERE THE DAYS MAN! Doing debates literally sends shivers down my spine, ugh. Especially impromptu ones!

This time rebuttals were pushed to the last 7 minutes after everyone has sponken. WELL. I was GONG today, heh! But I had fun! Despite the butterflies and bees and whatever you call that. And we're all trying not to laugh when Evan at HQ sends us funny stuffs. OPPS!

Haha, gotta go do assignments... or try doing them before I recall our funny monday and start laughing ALL OVER AGAIN!

Silly Saturday!

YEEEHAWW! I'm BACK! For the BETTER! Heh!

Today's a really good day, compared to yesterday's suckish day. I don't even know what contemplated me to write that out. HMMS. So it's all good, it's all good(:

Mawar and Yana came to my place for the CAYC performance thing thing today! It was so cool, we had so much fun! And i can double, triple, if not quadruple and quintuple confirm plus chop plus sign that I, GAN GEK TENG, have TWO LEFT FEET. Okay? I can't dance, I suck at it, PERIOD.

But what's important is that I have lots of fun learning those dance steps and making them silly! Haha! At least they've got entertainment value, which I'm alright with!

We completed and rehearsed and everything within less than 2 hours. Really not expecting this at all. This shows how work oriented we are! YEAH! The rest of the time we spent on strumming the guitar and playing the piano. Oh, I still can't believe I have a PIANO IN MY ROOM. Hahaha! I LOOOOOVE IT! And today will be the day I played the guitar for the longest time of my life. Lucky thing is my fingers aren't hurting so bad now, they've all gone seasoned! Which is good. I don't have to have skin tearing off and hanging on the tips of my fingers every single time I play the guitar.

After that was dinner. Dad actually REMEMBERED to buy the mock prawns for me to try doing the Corn prawns or something like that I've learnt from Kevin's mom recently! Then we went to NTUC at civic to buy more things. I'm gonna be cooking carbonara speghetti tomorrow! Hopefully it will be successful. I'll keep my fingers crossed. Then maybe the next LADIES' sleepover, we'll cook that for dinner/supper/breakfast/WHATSOEVER! Whoo! Although we haven't come up with a date yet, I'm still excited!

Okay, gonna start tackling my play assignment now. Shush! It's not as easy as you think! The play PROCESS is fun, but not the play ASSIGNMENT. Those are two totally DIFFERENT things altogether. So let me have my peace for a while.

Cheers!

Ultimate Love Song

I chanced upon this song sometime yesterday at this event at Northpoint. Ahh, old songs just bring back gazzillions of memories. I remembered having to listen and interpret this song in one of the English class during Sec 2. Drenched me with emotions and whatever you call that.

I didn't know why, wasn't feeling quite good today. This song kept playing and playing in my head like an old broken record. And sitting in Makan Place eating my kway tiao, I suddenly wished I could go back to those days. The days where recesses meant booking one of those umbrella-shaded picnic tables and home-made sangwiches from my mother, and lunches meant a bottle of green tea with XinLing plus random chats with the chinese rice aunty. School seemed more realistic and 'small-scaled' than what I saw the last time. Poly's overwhelming, especially the tuition fees. I love what I do there, but it's the people and happenings in secondary school that I'm afriad I'll always miss. I don't know why, but I just keep coming back to those memories from secondary school. This song just brings back memories. I remembered singing it with Isabel during class too!

Oh, you can never expect/believe how a song from nowhere can squeeze so much memories and emotions out of a person.

So here's the song. I know I've slept alot, but since I finished what I planned to do already, there's no reason for me to stay awake anymore. Besides, I really need to sleep off these raw emotions pouring out of me. And maybe dream for a while.



Off to a new attachment centre at Woodgrove Avenue tomorrow, with 2 anecdotals to complete at the end of the day! Shall look for a cutiepie to observe on! Hoping for the best, but no expectations yet. Til now, other than my own childcare I attended when I was young, Kindercare's THE BEST.

Here's to LOVE, and everything in between.

love, me.

beautiful mess

Oh, the joy of a fellow ECH student! It's just SOOO GOOOD to feel like a kid once again!

Wow, sometimes I'm just so happy I chose this course instead of listening to the elders say I should enrol in better courses or even go JC. The modules in second sem are all quite fun!

I just realised through the creative arts lecture that listening to children's songs actually makes me happy. Heh! For all you know, I'll probably be spamming Laurie-something and those old hi-5 songs in my ipod instead of GLEE and Lady Antebellum.

Okay, into the main attraction of today's post, let's introduce my new-found favourite module of ECH 1.2, PLAY!

Today's tutorial was so fun I don't think any one of us actually minded getting dirty and leaving the class with hands like HULK or AVATAR. Mine was alright, it looked hot-pinkish(: HAHAHA! And so we made goo (yes, those nickelodeon awards green slimy GOO) with water and corn flour, junk play with national geographic magazines and everything else you could find in the mindless and messy pile of junk, and finally edible playdohs made out of mixing flour, cream of tartar and water. I actually haven't heard of this cream of tartar thing until I was required to bring them for this session. It actually makes the doh softer and yea, with the help of Giang Hwee and Sihui, I managed to find the filling for my COLOURFUL COLOURFUL X1000000000000000000 yam pao(:




Since it's a Monday, we have our funny event for our funny day. Heh! I wore my shoes in the room without knowing, until Yana asked me about it when we left to wash our hands! It didn't even occur to me that I should be shoe-less, and all the more to be looking for my shoe once I got oiut to go to the toilet. And yes, there am I, playing with flour and junk and whatsoever, with my shoes on instead of outside. This showed how focused and fun everyone was having in the session that none of them, except Yana - yes, not even me - noticed that I was wearing shoes and still walking around the class. Don't know why, at this time the story of The King and his Clothes or something popped inside my mind. Haha, I bet Yana's gonna start laughing again once she reads my post.

Other things included Mawar turned sick she didn't make it to class today): I really missed having all the 3 of us together again man! Feels so funny without Yana, or without Mawar during lunches and all that. Even group work feels different. MAWAR, COME BACK TO SCHOOL SOON!

I foresee the day when the 3 of us are back in action again, I'll be sure to take a picture. HAHAA!

Cheers!

Post-effects...

of the 3 2-hour lectures I had today. If it weren't for GLEE and Amazing Race on Channel 5, I would have been sleeping right now. Oh, but whatever! I have this great feeling I'm gonna enjoy tomorrow. We're going West Coast! With 3 DSLRs, can you believe it? I'm the lone NIKON here, but it's alright, I'm lovin' it!

I don't like lectures back-to-back. Makes poly life seem meek and boring. Especially in the ECH field/course, NOTHING CAN BE BORING. My favourite module of all is ultimately Creative Arts with Ms Lavina. Loving all the songs and jumping around we did during lectures and tutorials! I can't wait for tomorrow's tutorial. IMHO, her tutorial should be the last for the day to make our thursdays end great. Not that Mrs Tian isn't good, but how can Child Development module be comparable to fun and lively Creative Arts?! There's just no way.

Writing my notes in Play lecture in tiny sizes. Kinda reminded me of the days with Mrs Lee during Humanities lesson. Oh, I just miss those days. In fact, the lesson that I missed the most in Riverside's actually Mrs Lee's lesson. Don't you just miss those days!?!?!


Been visiting the FLICKR community very frequent these days, I kinda liked how flickr worked. Maybe it's time to open another photoblog after I have a steady amount of photographs in my photostream.

The wisdom of children

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May there always be Sunshine
May there always be blue skies
May there always be Mama
May there always be me

May there always be family
May there always be best friends
May there always be good health
May there always be love

May there always be music
May there always be chocolates
May there always be happiness
May there always be peace.

Thanks to this 4-year-old who wrote the first 4 lines, sometimes simplicity is easily achieveable.
And we should not be reminded about this too often.
As they should be etched in our minds and souls as the most basic things in life.
What do you really want in your life?
Fame?
Money?
Think again.

*Music by Raffi.

Unleash...

YOUR CREATIVITY!

Today's the first day of school, and dammit I woke up early. Earlier than expected. Mom was busy doing the laundry at 4AM in the morning and by 5+ she woke me up. Couldn't fall asleep again. I really felt nervous! Hahahaa! After so many years of schooling I still DREAD school. HEH!

Today's bus driver was a damn gong one, I didn't know which silly route he took, but he ended up paying extra ERP, and stuck in numerous jams, that at one point I couldn't recognise where I am anymore I thought he's gonna sell us all. And yes, we took around 1 hour, twice longer than the usual amount of time taken to reach school. I remembered at one point there's signs which pointed back to Woodlands road that seriously freaked me out. I don't wanna be late for the first day of school!

Yana reached school at 8.09AM, I remembered checking my phone at that time when she texted me. Mawar's shuttle bus was late. And so Yana went up without meeting us in the end as time was really running out. Turned out that the teacher was also a few minutes late. Traffic jams were happening at all parts of the city, I suppose!

The first lesson was Creative Arts for Young Children, and oh how I love it! Can't wait to do up lesson plans, but to act them out in our attachment centres proved it impossible for me. Fiza and I weren't going back to Kindercare anymore, and we had to restart the whole introduction and transition period with new children and all that. I'm seriously gonna miss the people in Kindercare! I can't help but think of how much Miss Anita's gonna be of help with our assignments for this module, since she's a music and movement teacher. Hope we'll be alright in our new environment! Which we wouldn't know until the 4th week of school.

But however stressing it was, I had fun! It's somewhat like a sharing session where we get to do physical stuffs and sing and interact. And much to our excitement, we have this drama dn music performance at the end of the term! Whoo! That's gonna be SOOOOO FUN! I seriously can't wait!

CAYC is about unleashing the creativity minds of young children and not enclosing them with boundaries. The sky's the limit! And skies are not always blue, flowers not only red, and leaves not only green either. She showed us this video which I took the time to find in youtube. It's damn cute! I've already listened and listened to this song countless time already, and I CAN'T STOP! Watch it! Just like it's worth reblogging in my blog, it's worth watching!



Then we had a 3 hour break in between and decided to play monopoly in the games area. Made me think of the days back where we had our o levels and were playing during lunch at Yueqi's... and how maomao made me lose my first kiss. OH DAMMIT.

The second and last module of the day was Professional Development. For teachers, I can presume. And you know what? Here's the good thing about studying in my course - the lecturers are actually trained teachers who have 20+ years of experience with YOUNG CHILDREN. And all are hyper and childish and everything you wish a teacher can be. Of course there are exceptions, but we shan't talk about the minorities(: One quality of being a professional early childhood educator is to be POSITIVE!

And a smile is the best cosmetic anyone can put on. FOC too! hahaha!

I really enjoyed my day! It's been a wonderful day 1, but to be honest I can't wait for the Depavali holiday next friday and the elearning week on the 5th week. Oh, and did I mention my tuesdays are off for the first 3 weeks? WOOHOO I LOVE MY COURSE!

Serious!

It's a decision I will never regret forever!

Here's to great and impactful teachers!

P.S. The original singer of the song Red Flowers mentioned in the video above is by Harry Chapin. This is an alternate version(;