i can't explain this feeling...

i can't sleep.
not with an unstable heart.
i don't know why, but i feel very weird.
not a feeling so easy to describe.
i feel very sad.
desolated.
lost.
EMPTY.

and most importantly, I DON'T KNOW WHY.
my mother just praised and encouraged me after looking at my CT.
so i SHOULDN'T BE FEELING THIS WAY.
but I CAN'T HELP IT.
and I DON'T KNOW WHY.


AND THAT'S WHY I'M EATING CHOCOLATE COOKIES NOW.

DOES ANYONE KNOW THE REMEDY TO MY 'ILLNESS'???