Sticky: Resolutions...

that can maybe evoke revolutions?

HMMS.

I figured it's time to reflect and think about what I shall do and not do this year. Just gonna list down a couple of things that has been circling at the back of my mind these days.

1. Donate blood. At least once.
2. Get out of Singapore (and I don't mean Malaysia), at least once.
3. Post at least a picture everyday or every other day in my photo blog.
4. Try registering for a relief teacher for neighbourhood schools during the vacation.
5. Get a ukelele.
6. GET AN IKEA SHELF FOR GOD'S SAKE!
7. Time to pack my room for the Chinese New Year! (time is running out!)
8. Get a new lens? Maybe?
9. Make use of my 1yo gigantic IKEA photo frame already! Time to print those memorable and awesome pictures out and SHOW OFF!

That's it for now. I'm gonna go try fulfil my 3rd resolution in a while.

Also note that I didn't write 'stop procrastinating and leaving things to the last minute.' In my honest opinion, new year resolutions are not a list of your downsides. As a matter of fact, to me, it's a list of goals - ATTAINABLE ones - that you target to have it done by the end of the year.

Being a realistic person who knows myself best, I know I'll forever be a procrastinator. So let's just add one more resolution to clear this up.

10. To hand in my work on time and remember to SafeAssign.

This I can do. Hopefully.

We'll see.

P.S. I went forward a year in a desperate attempt to make this post sticky. Haha!

The Big Move!

Wow, as I'm typing this, I feel I've betrayed my long-time friend, Blogger.

I've moved ALL my posts here into my wordpress blog, which I've revamped it AGAIN. See, I'm so bored I do these things. But it's such a great feeling to see everything all nice and tidy on my wordpress blog.

Do take a look! And psst, there's no more bangphotography. Heh, now, it's just a part of the wordpress blog, WWW.STAXGAZER.WORDPRESS.COM!

See you there! Hahahahaha!

Let's waste time, downloading stuffs.

Technically it's not wasting time, but times like these... home alone during the holidays... are meant to be boring and meaningless and everything I don't want it to be. But sometimes MEEEEE time is unusually peaceful and serene too! Depends on your perspective la, sometimes it makes me go bonkers. Especially when I'm PMS-ing.

But these days, I don't know whether it's because of my happy hormones or just plainly because things are just going smoothly for me or whatever, I'm enjoying my holidays just as much! Went out during the past2 days, and boy, I did lots of shopping YIPPEEEEE!

Not for clothes, actually, but more on books...records... and all that stuff.

Don't really wanna elaborate too much, I'm still transferring videos into my iphone, which is taking a hell out of my time. Gotta figure out a pattern to work out those things! Oh yeah, the best thing about yesterday was that both Mom and Dad took leave and we spent out 'mini sunday' back to NP to get all my free programmes back on my Fujitsu! And not that I'm over-paranoid or whatever - which I really don't think I am - but just now the HD stopped responding and I had to force shut it down. Argh. I swear I'll save up and get a Macbook pro before I graduate from NP. And that MS Office software that costs less than 20 bucks! I'm really beginning to see the perks of being a local student. In Singapore context, I mean. I wonder if foreign schools actually have this kind of benefits for students? But the softwares are really a good buy. Will remember to get it before I graduate I SWEAR!

Okay then we went around shopping and eating and eating and shopping. I bought Goodbye Lullabye! WOOHOO! I mean my mom bought it for me. DOUBLE WOOHOOO!!! I feel I'm getting so stingy about my finances and all that nowadays. HMMS.

Okay Wednesday was just a trip to town to get some pop up books I adore. Like the Little Prince Deluxe pop up edition. YEAH, THAT. And many others. Well not much, if not I'll be broke by now. Heh!

Oh! I met up with the BITCHES for dinner on Monday too! It's so funny, Jerica and Shuhui came by to watch some movies before meeting for dinner. Insider story, but I'll remember this forever. Maybe even confess to my mother about what happened when I'm older. And legal. I mean 21. But it's so much fun!

Other days are spent at home or at ahma's. So nice, I kind of like to play with Jovianne. She's so cute and all that, but meltdowns, it's a nono for me. Hahaha, see, that's some advantages of not being a mother to a kid. You can simply avoid the meltdowns and get away ASAP, not being responsible for anything. And oh my, I do sound very irresponsible! Especially when I'm with people who are more responsible for thinggs compared to me. Ah, I'm sidetracking and babbling.

Nevermind.

Channel U is showing this awesome show about private investigaters and solving cases and all that. Kind of like a sitcom, where there's funny things that happened every now and then. And so, after solving a case - currently only 2 - this madam will type a report and conclude about the mission. I've been keeping a mental track of those quotes from her since day 1:

Temptation is like poison coated with sugar. Once the sugar melts after tasting it, it's just too late to escape from the poison.

Behind every photograph, there are stories only the photographer knows themselves.

Something like that.

Yesterday Once More... Please?

Simply loved yesterday to bits! I was out for the whole day and it never felt better! I just love it when I go to the great outdoors, especially with oldies like Shuhui, Jerica and the other bitches! It was so fun, however it was only us 3 who went out yesterday.

Argh, I was supposed to have gotten my free softwares like Photoshop and MS Office by now. Yesterday's trip back to NP was completely a waste. I forgot to bring the proof of change of harddisk and the IT personnel didn't want to help me get back all the softwares. Completely wasted trip. Aiyooooo!

Shuhui and I shopped for a bit at IMM, where I tried on so many clothes I felt so malu I didn't buy any of them. HEHE! Oh yeah, the new Kbox outlet at CCK was the bomb! Super new facilities and I was even able to record and bluetooth my new cover, Listen by Beyonce to my phone! Furthermore, ONLY $6 FOR 3 HOURS! Okay, 2.5hours to be exact, but we sure had fun! Gotta go there with MAwar and Yana sometime! YEEEEHAWW!

And so it was so fun we decided to extend the timing and pay another 6 bucks to sing til 7, but unfortunately bookings were full): Us last-minuters decided to catch I AM NUMBER 4 at Lot 1 shopping mall instead. Ahahaha, don't you just love the excitement of UNPREDICTABILITY? It was 4.45Pm and we managed to get really good seats for the 5.10PM slot. Seriously, when we got in the theatre I realised the whole row was taken by only the 3 of us. BEYOND AWESOME!

Ahyi told me to get some goodies for her colleagues as her thank-you-for-your-well-wishes-while-i-got-2-months-of-paid-leave-at-home-cos-i-fractured-my-bone-when-i-fell-into-the-drain-while-walking gifts. Luckily Shuhui was around to make the experience more enjoyable and less stressful for me. Surprisingly I lugged everything, yes, CHOCOLATES AND JUNKFOOD WORTH S$106.25 home by MYSELF. Thank you very much.

And actually, I wouldn't mind not having a job for the whole of my entire 1.5 months of vacation. See the point? I don't feel like slogging out for more money when you get to rest, then start year 2 with a not-so-good-note. Oh, come on! Holidays and vacations are meant to be enjoyed! I'm not even pressed for money, truthfully. I think my current temporary income of a meek $80 a month from tuition is enough to keep me alive.

Love Language.

Sad Saturday for me. Meaningless and boring and emo. AND REDUNDANT.

But now I know my love language. I didn't read the book, there's just so many thoughts and doubts and curses worries circling in my head the whole time and it suddenly came to me that I HAVE TO know my love language. Ms Lavina spoke about this once in a class, I recalled.

Before I did the test on this website, I already kind of know what mine is, and turned out, I WAS RIGHT!

Quality Time

In Quality Time, nothing says “I love you” like full, undivided attention. Being there for this type of person is critical, but really being there—with the TV off, fork and knife down, and all chores and tasks on standby—makes you feel truly special and loved. Distractions, postponed activities, or the failure to listen can be especially hurtful.

TADA! There you have it. What's next? I don't know. One thing for sure, I know Mom won't know this, nor am I gonna be telling her or whatever. It just seem meaningless. Maybe I should get her the book. Ah, forget it. I'm so not in the mood to talk to her. Not for what she did, but what she DIDN'T do. OR am I just over-sensitive? Overreacting?

For now, my love cup (or whatever it's called) is empty. E M P T Y.

But then again, what's the use of knowing your own love language? Am I gonna spend QUALITY TIME WITH MYSELF? Yeah right, way to go.

Shall share this thing with ahyi once I get to ahma's place, and find out about hers too! Here's something to look forward to, right? RIGHT?!

Looks like I'm really not coping well emotionally. Bye.

Endings.

Perfect? Happy?

Ah, I don't care. What matters most, I think, is how much you've taken away from it. What have you learnt? What have you experienced? What are the new encounters? New people?

Doing the annual conclusion now seems rather appropriate - I've completed all my assignments (like finally!), all except one module have wrapped up, souvenirs given. I can't believe tomorrow's really the last day of my 1st year in poly. Seriously, how did I get here?

Okay, I have to admit, in the midst of YOG, elearning weeks and vacations, our holidays are SUPER LONG. They are probably as long as our schooling days. But well, it's been a fun ride. Met new people, no matter how much I hate about opening myself up to more people and all, I have to. And it all comes down to those who have stayed; those that I've chosen to stay with. Can't really imagine life without friends, so here's to Mawar, Yana, Hafiza, Evangeline, Aisyah and Raihanna! It's been such an interesting year yaw!

It's so good to still have old friends like Shuhui and gang. I loved that we still made a point to keep in contact, host stayovers, celebrate birthdays and all that. Making a point to still meet up and catch up with each other's lives! (No matter how different they have all become...) It's so wonderful we still interact and gossip and yack like those good ol' secondary school days, when we're still in that pure innocent lives of ours. Simple sweet and happy. Those days are always one of the best moments of my life.

Me Yana and MAwar had this so-called end of semester celebration today. Karaoke was too expensive and we settled for a movie instead. Oh my, we had so much fun! And I laughed so loudly in the cinema, but I don't care. Somehow, it reminded me of the days where me and Isabel will always be the dramamamas of the whole cinema.

Attachment has also come to an end. Mixed feelings - that's what I call it. I often wonder how it would be like if we actually stayed on at Kindercare. But I stopped thinking already. Sigh, it's always like this, it's always when that something in your life is about to disappear, that you begin to regret for all the negative feelings you once had at first. It has always been like that for me. Ah but now, I'll miss the kids soooo much. It's such a pity I only get to know the mature K2 kids towards the last 2 weeks of my attachment. I felt soooo bad for not being able to do the art lesson for everyone last Tuesday. I think this will be one of the regrets of my whole life. I wonder if the kids will miss me? Or even remember me? I don't think so.

I think I'm gonna name my future daughter Caitlin. Or Kaitlyn. Oh, and Arielene too. Or Annabelle. Haha.

And how can I forget sons? Jayden will be on the top of my list and Asher and...?!?!

There were once soo much words and feelings in my head, but I don't know why it has all gone to where it seemed impossible to locate.

I think I'll just continue to go with the flow. Be more confident. And contented. Don't complain too much! Everything has its own good and bad, depends on how you see it. And all these memories? Stored and locked inside my head for as long as I live.

I'm gonna go have my beauty sleep soon, late class tomorrow! YAY!

Just keep swimming, just keep swimming~~~

i.... have no mood.

Here it is. I opened this page up and also a baby blog I've been gushng about and following for quite a while now. The latest post from the Mom really breaks my heart. Sigh, I shall not mention it now.

It's so sad. No child in the world should ever suffer from pain and illnesses and what-nots.

I should be blogging about today, but I don't have the mood to do so right now.

Tomorrow then.