how time flies~~~

okay tomorrow is my olevel's chinese. i study le. the only thing i'm worried about of paper 1. okay that's all for olevel's chinese.

tomorrow mtv movie awards. i'll be missing a big portion of it because of the exams. but really, watching this vid make me awed how time flies. a year ago:

MTV Shows

hope zanessa wins best kiss!
hope vanessa wins best female breakthrough!
hope zac wins best male!
hope hsm3 wins best movie!
HOPE TOMORROW'S PAPER WILL BE EASY FOR ME!

this is such a happy lesson day~~~

kids. always that hyper and cute and innocent. i wish i could be like them the whole time, and do not have any huge and major responsibilities to worry about. sighs, life gets more complicated when you're older. as i'm thinking about how nice it would be to be a kid once again, at the same time i can't wait to grow up and build my own future. so there's the irony. you can't really get enough of what life is offering, and often get greedy. in the end, you don't really know what you really want.

i wish i could be a kid. in that way i don't have to think about the complicated things in life. in that way i'll just live in my own happy world made up of nothing but treats. i'll not know about how global warming is affecting our earth, and how the fragile lives of human beings are destroyed when disasters of all kinds strikes. i'll never come to know about how humans can be scheming and scrulpulous when it comes to fame and money. and this is always the time where pure and genuine friendships are formed. it is when 2 little persons just converse, and seconds later they'll become best friends. all because of the fact that you don't have to be anyone but yourself.

i wish i could stay in this phase of my life too, as a teenager. in that way i won't have to think about how my future will turn out to be. in that way i can also get freedom. in that way i'll be able to stay in the moment and not part with all those beautifully imperfect friends that i've made. in that way i'll be able to do silly things with them, and not worry about how other people look at us. in that way we can walk in the rain singing loudly and not care about a damn thing.

i wish i could grow up fast. in that way i'll be rid of my duties and responsibilities from my studies, and be able to earn money to support my family, and obtain the standard of living i've always dreamt to have. in that way, i'll be able to live up to my dreams and make a difference to the world, however small my contribution may be. in that way, i could afford to go travelling around the world, like i always dream of doing. in that way, i can meet lots of different people and view life with different perspectives.

sometimes, i wish i could just sleep, and wake up, and eat, and do things that i like, without any responsibilities, without restrictions, without reservations. i could be as crazy, or as melancholic whenever i like, without having to think about how others may see me.

however perfect my wishes are, well, one has to face up to reality. the harsh and cruel reality. life must go on. and i've come to understand; do not be sorry for the things you've done in the past, live your life to the fullest everyday, cherish them, and hold them tight with both hands, and always be hopeful of the future, and wherever it might take you.

i'll learn to be contented and cherish the times i have now in my last few months of my ever so wonderful secondary school life. it'll be hard to let them go; but life has to go on, and one have to move on. but wherever one may go, the ties that are bonded will never break. but will strengthen as time pass. with you guys as friends, i'm beginning to believe in this. i can see in like,30years later in our lives, when we come together and laugh about the past. and our oh-so-wonderfully imperfect teenage lives.

and once again, i've posted such a philosophical and somewhat melancholic post. i don't know how, but feelings just came pouring into me. so yeah.

cl olevel is on monday. and i believe as long as i do my best, put in hard work, i'll eventually get what i want. this applies to the rest of my subjects too.

i've decided not to post pictures today. doesn't really suit the mood of this post.

''when life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations, it's not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end.''

however hard it may seem, i'll try to live up to this quote. i promise.

my last lap...

okay, so the never-ending mother tongue week had finally come to an end. hmms. i could really say i've learnt quite alot this week. we did some revision, and some really tough and challenging papers that i won't even care to do if they weren't forced upon us. so, overall WELL DONE! HAHA!

i just hope all goes well on monday. and i hope all my hardwork WILL pay off, just like what mdm nora told us last year.

i'll be going to jurong nanyang christofori branch later in the afternoon for miss chong's little mozarts little concert. i bet it'll be so fun! hahaha! most probably be taking loads of pictures and making some new and cute little friends!

it's time to bathe. see you!

the oh-so-intensive mother tongue week

okay, the title is not meant to be a sarcastic remark, so IT'S TRUE. so intensive. my god~

yesterday, i thought i wouldn't be able to take it. i reached home at 5plus, which means i had 8 hours of mother tongue! from 8 to 5. how cool is that. and i still have a paper 2 to tackle, i remember. this whole thing is seriously driving me nuts.

but it's quite alright today, since i put in my effort to do the papers yesterday, i needn't stay back today! quite proud of myself. such an accomplishment! OH YEA! so i went home with bernice and bathed and slept. UNTIL 7.30PM. and that's the reason why i'm still here now. if not for the paper yesterday, i would have also slept early. but today it seems impossible for me to sleep. so yea.

okay ellis reminded me that i still have my testimonial to fill up, so i'd better go now.

gosh i just hope friday comes quick and monday pass quick.

obssessed with american idol-.-

hello. kris allen rocks. this week is american idol week man. i'll get videos. but now, i just wanna share this david cook song. it's nice man. first listened to it on the season finale of AI, then i ccame to know this song is written for his brother who had brain cancer. made this song all the more meaningful for me. i teared a little listening to it and reading the lyrics. really nice song la. and youu should go listen to the live of kris allen's TO MAKE YOU FEEL MY LOVE. omg i love it man. lols! but now i'll just post this david cook's song. ENJOY!

fun times~~~

hi! i guess i'm sounding better compared to my previous post...

well, let's get this post started with a sweet note! (okay, it's an inteview...)

Vanityfair: You’ve been with your costar Vanessa Hudgens for a while now. One of the nice things about you two is that you don’t hide your love from your fans.
Zac Efron: Why should I? That’d just make me look like a liar or hypocrite. Never mind the fact that it’s just something really wonderful that all the world and his brother can bear witness to our love. We just don’t have anything to hide.

VanityFair: Do you read what’s written about you and Vanessa in the internet then?
Zac Efron: No, most of it is just nonsense anyway. Vanessa and I are happy together. That’s all that counts. Vanessa is a totally amazing person with a big heart. When you’re in a relationship, appearances and what’s happening on the outside aren’t important: it’s about whether you fit together deep down inside. I’ve already had a couple of relationships where it became obvious after a while that we just didn’t have anything to say to each other.

VanityFair: What are you going to do after this interview?
Go into my hotel room and text Vanessa 'cos it's still way too early to call L.A.
so sweet!!! >.<

ok, back to business... i shall talk about the fun-filled weekend i had. well, not that fun, but still great:D i had a busy saturday la. morning went for extra physics lessons. seriously, after all these months, i've got to like mr low's physics lessons alot. i think we should also give him the positive comments like how we criticised his teaching at the start of the year lor. well, if mr low, you're reading this, YOU ROCK! HAHAHHAA! then i had to rush for a 45minute practical. well, not really rush, but i remembered i rushed home from school with jerica and reached home within 8minutes after boardinng the bus! then the ssame usual stuffs like theory and tuition blah... then met with the rest and made our way to esplanade for the tas youth voices concert. OH MY GOD IT WAS GREAT. LOLS! although some silly stuffs cropped up along the way, i was glad i made it to thee concert. I EVEN SAW MISS CHOO! AND HER BABY! AND I CARRIED HER BABY! but sadly he wasn't in a good mood, and SLEEPY. but he was nonetheless cute! so hyper too. like miss choo, i guess. or should i say mrs angeline choo-sassarak(sp?). it's good seeing her la. i feel so good! hahaha!

rushed to the nearest subway with weiloke and alicia and weile. it's kinda weird, all the way it's just weiloke and me talking crap. well, whatever ba. it was only after we got chased out of subway before WE SAW THE 24HOUR XINWANG CAFE JUST BESIDE IT.ARGH! WE SHOULD HAVE GONE THERE TO SUPPER INSTEAD! lols! blame on my starving stomach-.-
and we were lucky to have caught the last train home(:

sunday was alright. not a day i'd want to remember. i don't want to be rude, but that doesn't mean i'm happy about it. what thee hell. it's an insider story. a story i'm not that proud to tell some billy tom mary or harry. so yea, i guess i'll just skip that. spent the whole day frustrated and emotional. SERIOUSLY WHO ARE YOU TO JUDGE ME. just thinnking of it made my blood boil. 101degree cecius.

okay so there was monday. I PASSED MY 2.4!! i almost burst into tears after the run, seriously. i'm so fortunate to have best buddies like peckyong, xinling, bernice, yueqi. especially xinling and peckyong, who endured and ran with me and pushed me the whole journey. i admit i was stubborn as a mule and just wouldn't want to run. lols. i would have performed much better if it was a ball game instead-.- bernice and yueqi was at the starting point cheering for me. isabel,shuhui and jerica wanted to come but have to past their standing board jump first. but i'm so lucky i've got these good friends. made me senior year alot more memorable and meaningful. if not for them, i would have done alot worser. thanks thahira for giving me a plaster for my blister(HEY IT RHYMES!!!) and asnira for supporting me spiritually and a whole lot of people. i'm so fortunate to have met everyone. LOLS.

i've been chionging homework yesterday and today in school, so i didn't have much to do today i guess. thee rest of my english shits left in school, forgotten. ALMOST. hahha! went to the library and borrowed a nicholas sparks book. oh yea. YESTERDAY I WENT TO THE SCHOOL LIBRARY AND FOUND A BOOK THAT I WANTED TO EAT IT UP LITERALLY; THE COMPLETE GUIDE TO VEGETARIAN FOOD. OH MY GOD. AND IT'S ACTUALLY A STUPID REFERENCE BOOK. WHAT THE HELL I CAN'T BORROW IT. so i went to the cookery area to see if i could find my dear book, but i gaveup and decided to spend one of the days going to the library todo some... ya know. COPYING-.-what the hell right. went to get school supplies after that. wow. I WITNESSED THE POWER OF TEAM SPIRIT TODAY MAN. bernice, xinling and ahting(hippo) just went alll around popular looking for stuffs for ahting(ME) while she checks out pens. lols. THANKS FOR MUCH FOR HAVING SUCH WONDERFUL FRIENDS. sorry huiting for not coming for dinner this week, maybe next week ba. cos although the times spent dinnering with you guys are all worth it, i really need to save some le.

and saying this reminds me of the dinner we had in pizzahut last friday. it was so cool. that assistant manager AMY was so great. REALLY APPRECIATED THE HELP SHE RENDERED US LA. OKAY, ME, I MEAN. doing so much for a vegetarian... such a lovely manager. HAHA! then mandy and shuli joined in and made our evening more interesting and ridiculous. one of the dinners i will remember for life. although most of the jokes cracked there has been long forgotten... EXCEPT FOR THE CAMEL AND ELEPHANT DE! LOLS! okok i better stop le, this post is getting SUPER LONG. people like mandy will faint when they see this. HAHHAA!

PICTURES!

another step to self destruction.

don't know why, i've been kinda emotional lately. maybe it's PMS, now to think of it, but i loathed this feeling. ALOT.

i just feel empty. i don't know why.

school is seriously wearing me down. i don't know if i'll be the GEKTENG i used to be. i hope this feeling would only last temporary, like it alwways used to be, but i'm not sure.

and people,

i am so tired. so very the tired.

will someone safe me?
HAHA.

it's been a hell of a week!

hello. currently being tortured by english work. argh! i shan't say more, it only makes me more emo. it just seems that my hard work wasn't being appreciated as everything turned out wrong. i don't know what to do about them. and i don't really want to care at the moment. so that's that.

well, i'm glad to say that i've made real good use of the long holidays! not exactly chilling out, but only to the extent that makes me didn't want to come back to school on tuesday. but well, it's only after i came back, then i realised how much fun school can be, and how i miss all my wacky friends and stuffs.

so the holidays! i was out for almost the whole day; going shopping around AMK, then rushing for tuition. i made chocolate cornflakes at night to prepare for the mother's day gathering on sunday. pictures will be posted later(:

and i read this really awesome book: UNEXPECTED by LORI FOSTER. thought those main characters were rather cute. it kept me awake til 3am that night! haha!

sunday morning my mother and i did sushi for the gathering. quite fun ba, i think. although i didn't get to roll the sushi up. i was the mixer of the day! then went to ahleng ah yi's house. although we were like 'late' for an hour, WE WERE THE FIRST TO ARRIVE! HAHAHA! went downstairs to play the helicopter with jarryl. I DIDN'T KNOW HE WAS GROUNDED! MY GOD. oh well, so that silly boy got the helicopter into the pool, and once got it into the mass of bushes. haha. thank god he was brave enough to make me push him up so that he can scramble through the plants to get the helicopter! actually he suggested doing that though! haha. So proud of him was i(:

then we went to the playground to play armyy. or that's what he called. haha. it's like a game of war where we shoot each other down. then came his idea of us teaming up to fight against the forces of evil. lols! it's been so long since i played games like this! and it was damn fun too. haha!

after dinner i went up to the highest floor to watch the sunset. although i only got a small glimpse of it, it was sure very beautiful. and the sun set real fast too! after that we played mahjong and blah. quite fun la! hahaha! i've never played mahjong with my family members before lor! after that got to bath and went back to ahma's place. the next day. as usual, ahma fed me with loads of stuffs. WOOTS! hahahaa! very nice la! i miss her cooking. didn't get to eat her kangkong though.

okay i think that's it for now. i still have to do my homework and stuffs.









embrace mother nature and what she has to offer; before it's too late.

what a week.

i'm running out of attention span!

what a week! i was dead beat by the end of today.

argh.

not a surprise i think.

thurdays just isn't my favourite days.

and since when have i started to type like that?

seriously,

I DON'T KNOW.

it's time to change a blogskin.

and it's time for me to share a video.

miss lim let us watch during her lesson.

it's such a beautiful art to know how we can play with words...

ENJOY!

my stomach's grumbling.

here's a disadvantage to staying up late: you will get hungry and eat at the wrong times. ARGH. that's whaat i'm feeling now: HUNGRY! but i shouldn't be eating anything now. hahaha. i guess.

just completed my homework; not really alot, it's quite manageable, excluding the focus study WS, tuition papers and blah, ya, i think i'm done for the weekend. and now i just remembered i have a chemical bonding test to study for. and a spa test which is on wednesday. and another test on metal on thursday. OH MY~~~ ahahaha. argh my tys are in class! ouch. now. luckily i have assessment books. haha.

so i was playing and doing my homework all night long. was surprised ellis stayed up so late too, and seemed to be very in to facebook. haha! she introduced me to this new pet pet thing, where i got to adopt my own VAMPSTER. it's super cute, i tell you. pop in to my facebook anytime possible! i also adopted pompee the flying giraffee at fluff friends in facebook today. haha! i guess i'm addicted too. lols. hopefully the addiction won't last long. lols

went to ahleng ahyi's house just now. my, i just love her house. haha! it's kinda great lying out in the open air and staring at the skies with my mp3, and dozing off like that. it's really very nice. i wonder what it would be like if i were to doze on in a grassland. my, my dream house, my dream life. too bad i have too much responsibilities to fulfil all these dreams of mine. but it's okay, i'll just have to continue dreaming, it's not bad like that too, you tend to cherish the moments you have of peace and quiet. hahaha!

i guess i'll continue reading my nora roberts later until i doze again. haha. it's really nice studying at midnight where no one's making noise. except for a few who were chatting rather noisily outside just now.

IT'S RAINING. argh. better not rain in the morning. i plan to go for a run before i sleep. but i think my plans won't be working for me again this time. argh. 2.4's coming. I WILL PASS. HAHAHA!

family and friends...

not really in a good mood right now. but this doesn't stop me from blogging about my gorgeous family and friends!

yesterday was a gathering with friends. isabel,shuhui,weiloke,kaixian and me went to watch 252. request of isabel, but it was worth it anyway. GREAT MOVIE. got fooled by them that AMK hub caught fire and had to go orchard. luckily i'm not as blur as shuhui, if not i wouldn't have gotten off the train with them. haha. and luckily shuhui wasn't the one being fooled, if not it will bee very troublesome for us. HAHA! so we went to AMK hub to watch 252. wahh the cathay there got this super huge 17again poster right on top og the ticketing booths. the bigger it is, the more shuai zac efron is. and i just starred and starred for got knows how long. got this $10deal for a movie ticket and popcorn and drink. i would rather have a smaller popcorn and a larger drink, considering that my drink was already gone a few minutes after the show started, and my popcorn was only until 1/2 when i got this desire to puke. haha.

overall the movie was nice. better than i expected. haha. and the little girl really resembles jingyi lor! haha! and shee's very cute. i've also learnt something. lives are very fragile. OMG we must really live life to the fullest and not have regrets. i'm going to live the kind of life i want. with mountains and barns and dogs and horses and lakes and a beautiful scenery just outside my window. wouldn't it be nice. maybe that's the reason why it's only a DREAM. haha.

so after the movie we trained back home with kaixian and our subs. camped outside civic to eat our supposedly 'dinner'. it was fun. and it was so relaxing. i just wish we could do that every now and then. after that we went to mac and chat. talked about lots of stuffs. family, friends, siblings, our future, our dreams... the list was neverending. i bet we'd never be able to stop if the time allowed. we carried on until almost 12midnight then we went on our separate ways home. THANKS WEILOKE FOR SENDING ME HOME. hhaha! AND THANKS FOR THE FORGOTTEN COOKIES! it became my breakfast instead of his. haha!

today was quite a hell lot of stuffs too. got awoken by this strong smelling perfume my grandma was wearing. AND IT WAS LIKE 7AM IN THE MORNING.OH MY GOD. CAN YOU IMAGINE HOW FRUSTRATED I AM. WTH. well, this is the first and the last time i'm going to experience this kind of stuffs. i can't even smell my own shampoo until now. in fact, i think my nose is numbed. WHAT THE HELL!

went to tuition with the SMALLEST EYES my eyes could ever get. hahait shocked me too. uncle lawrence was so sweet to have brewed this vegetarian pot for me. it was so nice. he worked up to 3am last night to prepare the stuffs.and i'm so touched. i will do his amath papers man. haha!

went to ahma's place and got ready for the picnic. haha. we eventually decided to go west coast instead of the east one. alot of angmors. but either they are too old, or too young for me. hahaha! my mother told me not to eat flowers-.- accompanied jarryl with his playground expedition. lols. and he expected me to play with him. i became the green goblin for the day. LOLS. so much for babysitting. late evening we were playing catching and stuffs. then we played dog and bone. it was really fun! but thing is we got so hyped up only at the end of the day. haha. well, i'm sure there's always a next time. lols./

now PICTURES! (i'll just load some up; the image size are too big and have to wait for a long time to upload. haha)

i wish it would just slow down, or stop.