one fun fun week! and RICKY RUBIO!

HE'S RICKY RUBIO FROM SPAIN BASKETBALL.

HE'S SO HOT.

HE'S SO CUTE.

HE'S 17.

HE SCORES EVERY FREE THROW.

HE'S SO TALENTED!

HE'S MINE! MINE! MINE!!!!

WOOTS GO RUBIO!!!!

WHAAHAHS!!! HE'S SO CUTE! i was literally drooling in front of the TV watching the men's basketball finals between team spain and USA. haha usa won in the end, but oso nevermind la. the next olympics. MUAHAHA. I'LL BE WAITING FOR RUBIO. MUAHAHAH!!!

ok relax~~~ ah~~~

ok i'm back.

hmms. i wasn't able to post this week cos my computer broke down AGAIN last saturday. the on button sot sot le. THANK YOU DADDY FOR GETTING IT FIXED AND WORKING! haha! hmms. this week's full of happening. i wonder if i can relate everything out here. i helped mr loh out again in the cca honours' day. it's so fun la. hehe! then in the afternoon we have this mother tongue brew. shuhui and me were the cameragirls for the day. haha. it's more tiring than the station masters lor! need walk walk here walk walk there, then still need chase and find the groups from other schools. -.- but we still had a fun time nonetheless :)

tueday. ARGH ARGH ARGH LA. I STILL CAN'T PASS MY RUN. lol. i'm just not meant for running la. a game of captain's ball? BRING IT ON! run? err. NOT FOR ME. lols. and no one can change it la. i just dont have the stamina. who can i blame? my mother? hmms maybe. WHAHAHAS! but nevermind la. pass or fail oso dun care. at least i tried. at least i got exercise (although it's being forced upon. :P). and i espcially have to

thank isabel and peck yong for being there for me all the way although it's not necessary for them to do so. i'm so touched. thanks. thanks. thanks.

we had the mother tongue brew de karaoke competition. muahhaha. it's time for GEKTENG AND SHUHUI!! hehe! it's so fun la. although i screwed up a little. haha. but it's always nice to bring about some laughter. although they're laughing at u. haha. what matters most is everyone is happy. hehe! i'm also laughing at myself for that silly blunder i made >.<>

thurday i forgot what we do le. really. but somewhat i think i remembered i reached home at 8. or was it on tuesday? gosh i seriously forgot le. k skip. friday. we did the new choreographed rs dance for HL!!! so fun lor! my legs almost got tied up in knots. stayed back for the teachers' day banner. helped wailoke out for njrc things too. haha! i count so much $$$ that day lor. SO SHIOK! the banner was so fun la. paint paint paint. so fun so fun. then we went to McDonalds eat McFlurry. argh la. stupid wl no $$$ if not i'll let him back me for the kaya toast he took from me. we went to the library to look for my zheng xing bar. but really cannot find. zzz. really very desperate. argh. i reached home at 8. haha.

saturday was so fun!!! isabel shuhui and me went to ikea to play play. i wait so long lor. zzz. next time dun be punctual. ahaha! lucky i bought teenage to accompany me. see natasha oso. they were planning to celebrate humaira's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUMAIRAh!!! then we went to ikea lor. so fun. sat at almost all the couches, went to all the showrooms. so cool lor!!! i still wan go! my dreamhouse oso change le lor. small space can le. i just want fun, and people. lols. i can't live with myself. we went exploring with the minds that we are going to tong ju and looking for furnitures. haha! so fun so fun! isabel so so funny lor. and silly. made me and shuhui laugh like siao./ yes, i reasched home at 8 too.

hmms. today. went for youth class. nothing special. lunch was still delicious like every other week. went home and watched tv until now lor. i missed ratatiouiie. haha. nvm i think next week still have. can watch again. kk that's the end. oh yea. about that quiz. i'll do it. next time. haha.

cheerios.

inspired.

i've come to listening to more of CORRINNE MAY'S songs. haha. another talent from singapore. but yeai came to realise i liked her songs; how her lyrics went. inspiring lyrics that i'm now fond of. it's just crazy how someone can write songs like that. she must have felt for alot. haha. i don't think i could do that. hehe. but maybe i'll try. just MAYBE.

hmms. these few days were such a breeze la. not much going on. i've been buried in my NORA ROBERTS books since. completed reading 2, now starting on the 3rd one i've just borrowed yesterday. WRL seemed to have increased their numbers of book now, i realised. another silly aim of mine: to finish reading her MacGregor series. reading on the 3rd book now, and have 3 more to go. (provided i can find those books. HOPEFULLY. )

i've given the japan form to my parents. and they haven't give it back to me, nor even an answer. i'm disappointed. i'm, hmms. IRRITATED. ANNOYED. and i don't want to continue anymore.

i've clarified my doubts in youth class. so i hope nothing will go wrong for my sciences papers. i'll keep my fingers crossed. i've been doing the papers that Miss Wong gave. it's a lucky thing answers were given. at least i can work at my own pace and not rush for datelines and all. these datelines and all stopped me from doing my work. haha. i know i'm wierd. but now having to work on my own pace and check for the answers myself. hmms. i guess that's what i've wanted all along. this study plan actually suits me. or made me comfortable with it. hmms. i hope i can have good results ba.

national celebrations.

haha. today was national celebrations. and 3/6 managed to do it again. i'm so damn proud. I LOVE 3/6 TO BITS LA. it's so fun today in school. haha. went to school in uniform. hehe^^ the parade started the day. can hear that shenghao really got use his dantian and didn't get stuck in the throat(only after he zao sia... opps!). but yea everyone did very very well! i was so high then. imagine all your friends dressed so smartly and blah doing the marching and commanding. when i saw kames with the national flag as she made her way to the podium i just can't believe she was the one i talked, crapped and sung with just the previous day. and asnira there's no need to be awkward for being the only girl in 3/6 wearing red! cos' U ROCK!!

3/6 UG peeps did great. and now it's time for the esthetics people like me to do their part too. haha. gathered everyone into ITRR and did our songs. made changes here and there to make everything more PERFECT. made new friends and all with 3/3. oh ya THEY ROCK TOO!!! WOOTS! the celebrations went so ahead of time we had to leave so early. even the UG peeps didn't have the time to change. but this shows where talented both classes were, with UG peeps, esthetics and blah. i'm so proud. but happier. haha. i don't think we screwed up the whole thing. hehe^^ everyone did well and good. managed to produce the adlip(sp?) for we will get there, although the ending really sounds wierd and all. haha. it was such a lucky thing for me to still hit the high notes despite for being sick. i was told i nearly can't reach it. so lucky la. hehe. cos' i can't hear my voice at all. i and i NEED to get the videos from the AV ppl.

went to the back of the hall to support our mascot that will surface next. cheered so loudly for the mascot. haha. and WE DID WIN!!! WE DID WIN THE MASCOT!!! THANKS DANIEL!!! THANKS THE WHOLE CLASS!!! and i'm really very sorry i didn't participate in the mascot making. i was really too sick that day.(rmb the headaching hcl paper? >.<) but i'm glad we did it!!! the class has bonded so much together that i feel so touched. we sang, cheered and swayed TOGETHER/ WE'RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER. OH I JUST LOVE THEM SO.

we were so so high during the teachers' performance. mdm nora rolled her eyes at us when we cheered for her. haha. but SHE GAVE US SWEETS! it's such a funny moment la. i gathered all the empty rubbish and gave her back the packet. haha. then we sang the formula song she taught us. SO FUNNY!!!

went to eat breakfast at civic there. there's no more space so we had to go to 6th storey to makan. haha. really illegal gathering sia, but not really la. we didn't do anything illegal -_- shared extra value breakfast meal with pecky. haha. she's so scary with the syrup and butter. but it's quite nice la. haha! i went home after that.

hmms. wasn't quite happy upon reaching home. i was still thinking of how difficult i find it to communicate with my mother. and it really bothered me. i can see she's not really interested in the things i was interested in. like mandy managed to go fir concert and blah. and i was sad la. really so sad. but i will do my best. and suddenly i just have this strong feelings to break out of the restrictions she gave me. just for this once. FOR AVRIL LAVIGNE'S LIVE. i swear i would get myself to that concert. and i make sure i will. but it's just difficult la. sighs.

my mood worsened. i became cold and blah towards her. let her get a taste of what she's doing to me. but i don't think it makes any difference to her. but nevermind. i'm just so disappointed. it's quite wierd. you can be so happy and high, and when u get home disaster strikes and the feeling just doesn't exist anymore.

but TODAY. I WILL KEEP EVERY PRECIOUS MOMENTS WITH 3/6 IN MY HEART FOREVER. FOR TODAY WAS ONE OF THE HAPPIEST DAY OF MY WHOLE LIFE. AND IT ALWAYS WILL BE. IT MAKES SO MUCH DIFFERENCE TO MY LIVE. THANK YOU 3/6. AND NOT FORGETTING TO MENTION, 3/3. WE ROCK. WE TOTALLY RULE.

touching songs...

these 2 songs recommended by yohannis and isabel respectively. made me almost in tears. decided to share the lyrics. find the tracks yourself!!! haha. ENJOY.

Fly Away by Corrine May
When will you be home?" she asks
as we watch the planes take off
We both know we have no clear answer
to where my dreams may lead
She's watched me as I crawled and stumbled
As a child, she was my world
And now to let me go, I know she bleeds
and yet she says to me

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be praying every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

Autumn leaves fell into spring time and
Silver-painted hair
Daddy called one evening saying
"We need you. Please come back"
When I saw her laying in her bed
Fragile as a child
Pale just like an angel taking flight
I held her as I cried

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be praying every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

i'm already there by lonestar

He called her on the road
From a lonely cold hotel room.
Just to hear her say I love you one more time
And when he heard the sound
Of the kids laughing in the background
He had to wipe away a tear from his eye.
A little voice came on the phone
She said, Daddy, when you coming home?
He said the first thing that came to his mind.

Chorus
I'm already there,
Take a look around.
I'm the sunshine in your hair,
I'm the shadow on the ground.
I'm the whisper in the wind,
I'm your imaginary friend.
And I know I'm in your prayers,
Oh, I'm already there.

2nd Verse
She got back on the phone
Said, I really miss you darlin’.
Don't worry about the kids, they'll be all right.
Wish I was in your arms,
Lyin’ right there beside you.
But I know that I’ll be in your dreams tonight.
And I’ll gently kiss your lips,
Touch you with my fingertips.
So turn out the light and close your eyes.

i did a personality test.

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Loner (43%)	[...................]	Dependent (57%)
Laid-back (55%)	[...................]	Driven (45%)
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i was thinking...

hmms. sometimes people just started thinking. seriously now i believe; thought that you gather yourself when you are alone. hmms. they are really quite scary. too depressing for a human to take everything alone. i think that's why suicides occur. because one thinks too much; when they are alone. i've done my bit of thinking today. althugh my head was still throttling, i had the right mind to think. or ya. just think.

sometimes it's just so scary to think about everything that's happening around you, and how you wished it was just an illusion. hmms. i don't know what i'm saying. i've been feeling alot these days. thinking. making up 'wise' quotes of life. or something. and i'm not proud to say i've been making up all these today, cos' usually when i start to think like this and make up things like this, it's when emotion just takes over you. and you have no choice but to think. and think. and think. the normal GEKTENG will only be the one laughing and making people laugh, busy enough not to think. to think about those scary things. it's when you're alone, and have nothing to do, when you start to think. just like what i've been doing on the way home on the bus. in that rush of the moment i just had so much to blog about. but now haha. the feeling's gone, and so are my 'wise' words of the day that failed miserably to come out.

well. i woke at 4 in the morning today. might think it's too early for a sick eprson. but what to do? it's social studies. i had simply no other choice. i've decided that, waking up this early, when everyone is sleeping and all, is quite a good routine to start the day. haha.you can tend to see time passing by; when the sky lights up bit by bit, following by the increasing number of lights that will be seen lighted; just as the world gradually starts to light up. although this wasn't my point of waking up early today, but i've managed to observe all this. and it's just so beautiful; when you see people gradually starting their new day with the world, when the sun rises up. suddenly it just seemed to be so peaceful, and everything seemed to be alright; and nothing could go wrong. but that's just a wishful thinking of mine. a thought that had somewhat managed to brighten up my day.

i was lucky to still have possess a clear mind when the test starts. but the day just seem to get blurrer and blurrer each lesson; as my focus and attention was gradually being seeped away from me; and gone with the wind. maybe waking up too early may be a bad idea afterall, i decided. by the time chinese started, my head was whirling. i didn't manage to focus alot on the paper itself. and i felt so helpless and bad about myself. why did i choose this time to be ill? it's just not the right time, but i just had to perservere on and do my best. and of course, the results of that paper will not reflect of my best. and i'm afriad of what might happen to me next. i just don't want to be kicked out of the class. my chinese teacher is just too good to be true. but today, i can't help but to disappoint her. and i'm feeling sorry. not to her, but to myself.

i skipped choir today. and i've been thinking of what the teachers might think. they might think it's just an excuse of mine to be absent so that i could study for common test. which really wasn't true. but i do not seem to care now. but instead i just felt so bad about me leaving the class to do some decorations for the US delegates tomorrow. this left me in awe. i'm now actually more tied up, or.. hmms. concerned about the class, which i've spent with just less than 1 year, more than my passion towards choir. i think the feeling just fades off when time passes by. and now, towards choir, i'm feeling that same feel that i once had for student council. i've come to know that, even though a replacement for this conductor for choir is an easy task, but once this important person is gone, and so is my passion for choir. and through this, i'm glad that i had other stuffs like the council to keep my life going right. i've opened myself up to the council after that and made alot of new friends through the council too. as the saying goes, when one door closes, windows tend to open! (or something like that) i've also learnt alot from my beloved 3/6 class. haha. they made learning and working together more fun now! and i'm so greatful that Bernice actually made the speech that made everyone wake up and actually do something for the class. and, hard work really pays off, we did a wonderful job for CD through the arts :P, and i'm sure we'll do even better for national day celebration, with our songs, and the lovely mascot!

i was quite sad i was not in the right situation and all to participate in the mascot making and decorating of the class today after school. i felt quite sad about it. now even the class was in a more important place in my heart, compared to choir. haha.

and so i went home and got some sleep and all. although the 1hour of sleep doesn't really helped me in healing nor feeling better, it doesn't do any harm to me ba. i'm still slacking now, and giving myself this unpardonable excuse that i'm sick and therefore couldn't study. and i hate myself for giving myself this excuse, and although i know it's unpardonable, but i'm still living through this pack of nonsense that i've created for myself. how i wished i could just fall to sleep, and wake up, only to find myself healing for the better. it just sucks being sick.

losing grip

ARGH. IM SICK. IM OFFICIALLY SICK. ZZZ. how unlucky can i be. common test + sick = DIE X3. better heal fast. or else i don't know what to do. this time there's quite a large amount of things to memorise for social studies and history. sighs. i don't know how i can cope. chem and phy, i oso dunno how bad i will do. math? i don't know. i just know that my head's splitting and my nose is blocked. my brain's also blocked la. i'm aching all over. argh. seriously how long will this last man?! i mean i would love to take MCs and skip abit of ccas and this and that. but COMMON TEST PERIOD?!?! the time just isn't right for all my craps. ARGH. and i hate that.

well. math lesson is getting more and more stressing. i don't know what will happen to me if i failed. i'm feeling so hopeless of my sciences. i really am. i tried to study physics even, but i just can't take it. it's really not the right time to study. not the right... hmms... situation? you should see the state i am right now. i feel so... ARGH. no mood to study. and i feel so bad for it when i'm still using the computer. i don't know. theory homeowrk i oso haven do. i haven't been touching on anything since la. and i cannot don't blame myself for it; i cannot don't care about it. man, how i wished my dreams were reality. at least if it was, it would have been better.

so yesterday was the CD through the arts. i've coming to love this wacky class so much. although we're those attituded and all class seen as by the teachers, i believe it's just this that made us stand out so much, it's this that made me love it even more. we rehearsed from lesson end to 4.30 where we went to the hall for audition. at first we really aren't going anywhere, but i was so happy that everyone was getting a grip and doing everything as a class. A CLASS. OH MAN HOW I LOVE THIS CLASS. although the so-called lecture from Bernice was kinda harsh or whatever, everyone had really got hold of the situation and became much much more enthusiatic and all. 3/6 is really getting together la. although it's quite a long time before we got hold of it, what matters most is we did it. they sang lean on me so ever beautifully that it reminded me again, of last year's vocal mania where everyone sang and swayyed along in the shaking stage and RP. so near; yet so far. 3/6 had beat choir. really beaten them flat. i mean, us; the choir. >.<

mrs lee was so proud of us. we are now required to sing this new ndp song during the national day celebrations. and we even said we wanted to do the ohmms next year. i'm really so rpoud and touched. and i wouldn't mind staying up abit later or spending and sacrificing my time over this; cos it's all worth it. and everyone know it. i just love the class so much now.

sighs. pimple breakouts must be some indications that i'm strssed. haha. i don't know. bernice they all said i'm very easily stressed. hmms. maybe? i don't know. i just know im really having pimples now. and flu. i wouldn't want it to escalate to a fever you know. it can be quite annoying, especially when it's common test period. i wish i can take some time to heal; but i have to study. how??? i oso dunno. man i'm so sad. damn la. zzz