.
.
.
it's pathetic.
it's RIDICULOUS.
why am i always getting scolded.
when it wasn't even my fault.
is it really my problem that SHE woke up and cried because she was afriad SHE can't do well in her math?
SHE REAP WHAT SHE SOWED.
but suddenly I AM THE ONE who gets into trouble.
ehh, it's like, PLEASE, HER ATTITUDE SUCKS OK.
and it's not like i WANT to give her tuition.
and if she's already LOST INTERREST, THERE IS NOTHING WE, OR I CAN DO ABOUT IT.
SO STOP PUSHING THE BLAME TO ME.
IT'S RIDICULOUS.
i agreed to this crap, but the problem is IS SHE AGREEABLE TO IT?!
and that CAN SHE REALLY SCORE FOR MATH IF I TAUGHT HER?
or even give me the RESPECT AND COORPERATION.
WTH.
she would only take this for granted.
and GIVE ME ATTITUDE.
that i DISLIKE.
well, maybe u can say that i can TOLERATE.
it's easy for u to say.
BUT U HAVEN'T KNOW WHAT MY FEELINGS ARE AND ALL.
or maybe i wasn't MADE TO TEACH AT ALL.
SO I SERIOUSLY DON'T THINK I DESERVE ALL THIS CRAPPY STUFFS FROM THEM!
TOLERATE. HA.
they won't know how much tolerance i have had when I CAN'T EVEN USE THE COMPUTER WHEN MY EXAMS ARE OVER.
and it's just because SHE hasn't finished her exams. wth.
and this is not even my problem.
i dont think my life revolve around her ok.
no TV, no computer BECAUSE OF HER.
AND U STILL ASK ME TO GIVE HER TUITION?!
please. i'm not as NOBLE as you are.
i may not be a good SISTER,
but i dont give a damn.
cos it doesn't mean anything to have HER as a sister.
SHE MAKES MY LIFE SUCK. OK?
MAYBE EVEN YOURS.
SO BLAME YOURSELF THAT YOU ARE THE ONE WHO NURTURED HER TO BE WHAT SHE IS TODAY.
AND NOT ME.
and just leave me alone.
cos u won't understand how i feel at all,
and what i've gone through.
ridiculous. how can i help someone who has, because of her, resulted me to not watch TV and play the computer as much as the old days?!
god i miss my ah ma.
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Sunday, October 28, 2007
hmms. hmms. hmms. i feel this is going to be a long post. so....
FRIENDS. haha somewhat got influenced by Yohannis' post. hmms. i'm leaving 2/8 le. and i can't bear to leave. i'll surely miss my classroom. i still remembered my mother commenting about my new classroom about 2 years ago. "wahh your new classroom, fengshui not good." haha. i used to laugh at it. this wall in front of our class. it blocks the sun rays from entering our classroom while we're having lessons, blocked us from heavy rain, blah3. so i love my class. 2/8 peeps. ha. a great combination of talented people, who strives in dances, music, singing, and of course academically. no matter in dance or singing groups, 2/8 RASCALS seemed to have a higher percentage. our dear Miss Yuana is leaving too. yea. she's being posted to Sembawang Secondary. lucky school. Miss Yuana, a teacher that will NEVER scold. love her to bits! MISS YUANA WE WILL MISS YOU!!!
HUANGZU. my closest friends. and true enough, all the ups and downs made us closer together. really. i really enjoyed the times spent with HUANGZU. the laughters and tears/. and i'm really going to miss you guys. Yohannis doesn't believe in 'faraway friends' ha. i guess we have to prove her wrong? all the memories. never to be forgotten. watching SECRET at YL's when we have to squeeze so many people in her pathetically small bed, SHUHUI teasing us about the movie, but still ended up for crying one of the most, MEL who is too busy trying to crack the mystery to have time to cry, YL who cried after the movie ended, when everyone had stopped, LING MEI who was never crying, but the one who went out to take tissues for us, MANDY who will just cry secretly in a corner without a single sound, BERNICE, who don't dare to show that she's crying, YANJUN who cried so much that it drenched YL's shrek pillow. playing playstation, with bernice and yanjun screaming and shouting when they are competing, bernice being so cutely angry that she's lost to yanjun, mandy who will laugh until tears comes out, AND MORE. i'll never forget them.
CONCLUSION TO THIS POST? FRIENDS MAKES MY WORLD GO ROUND.
___________________________________________________________________
'In good times, in bad times I'll be on your side forever more, that's what friends are for'
'Don't be dismayed at goodbyes. A farewell is before you can meet again. And meeting again after a moment or a lifetime is certain for those who are friends' Richard Bach
'Thats what a friend is for, when your lost in darkness and searching for the light, to help you through those lonely nights, when everything around you fails just hold out your hand, and i'll come running, thats what a friend is for.' Marty Keith
'The times when we would play about,
The way we used to scream and shout
We never dreamed you'd go your own sweet way.
Look for the rainbow in every storm,
Find out for certain, loves gonna be there for you,
You'll always be someones baby
Goodbye my friend
I know you're gone,
you said you're gone although I can still feel ya here
Its not the end
Gotta keep it strong before the pain turns into fear.' Spice Girls
'Don't want to leave, but we know sometimes it's better to go. Somehow I know we'll meet again, not sure quite where and I don't know just when you're in my heart, so until then, smile, don't want to cry saying goodbye.' The Muppets
'A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart, and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words.'
'Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow.
Don't walk behind me, I may not lead.
Walk beside me and be my friend.'
'Friendship: a building contract you sign with laughter and break with tears'
'It's the friends you can call up at 4am that matter'
'Friendship that flows from the heart cannot be frozen by adversity, as the water that flows from the spring cannogt congeal in winter.'
'Best friends are like diamonds, precious and rareFalse friends are like leaves, found everywhere.'
'We are all angels with only one wing...we can fly only embracing each other'
'Time isn't what makes a friendship last...It's love and devotion that keeps the tie between souls'
'Gems may be precious, but friends are priceless'
i'll post pictures next time. =)
'Friendship is the golden thread that ties all hearts together'
'Friendship is what gets you through the bad times and helps you enjoy the good times'
'Friends are angels following you through life'
'The most beautiful discovery that true friends can make is that they can grow separately without growing apart'
'How lucky I am to have known someone who was so hard to say goodbye to'
'I don't remember how we happened to meet each other. I don't remember who got along with whom first. All I can remember is all of us together...always'
'A friend will be there for you when things are good...but a TRUE friend will be there for you when things are good and also when things are very bad...and just when it feels like you will never smile again...she can put a smile on your face with just with a hug'
'There is no distance too great between friends, for love gives wings to the heart'
'I believe in Angels, the ones that heaven sendsI believe in Angels, but i call them my best friends'
'We laughed until we had to cry.We gave love,right down to our last goodbye.We were the bestwe thought we'd ever be Just you and me,for just a moment... '
'Remember that every good friend was once a stranger' i remembered the 1st day of secondary 1 life. i was just sitting behind BERNICE AND YANJUN. :)
FRIENDS. haha somewhat got influenced by Yohannis' post. hmms. i'm leaving 2/8 le. and i can't bear to leave. i'll surely miss my classroom. i still remembered my mother commenting about my new classroom about 2 years ago. "wahh your new classroom, fengshui not good." haha. i used to laugh at it. this wall in front of our class. it blocks the sun rays from entering our classroom while we're having lessons, blocked us from heavy rain, blah3. so i love my class. 2/8 peeps. ha. a great combination of talented people, who strives in dances, music, singing, and of course academically. no matter in dance or singing groups, 2/8 RASCALS seemed to have a higher percentage. our dear Miss Yuana is leaving too. yea. she's being posted to Sembawang Secondary. lucky school. Miss Yuana, a teacher that will NEVER scold. love her to bits! MISS YUANA WE WILL MISS YOU!!!
HUANGZU. my closest friends. and true enough, all the ups and downs made us closer together. really. i really enjoyed the times spent with HUANGZU. the laughters and tears/. and i'm really going to miss you guys. Yohannis doesn't believe in 'faraway friends' ha. i guess we have to prove her wrong? all the memories. never to be forgotten. watching SECRET at YL's when we have to squeeze so many people in her pathetically small bed, SHUHUI teasing us about the movie, but still ended up for crying one of the most, MEL who is too busy trying to crack the mystery to have time to cry, YL who cried after the movie ended, when everyone had stopped, LING MEI who was never crying, but the one who went out to take tissues for us, MANDY who will just cry secretly in a corner without a single sound, BERNICE, who don't dare to show that she's crying, YANJUN who cried so much that it drenched YL's shrek pillow. playing playstation, with bernice and yanjun screaming and shouting when they are competing, bernice being so cutely angry that she's lost to yanjun, mandy who will laugh until tears comes out, AND MORE. i'll never forget them.
CONCLUSION TO THIS POST? FRIENDS MAKES MY WORLD GO ROUND.
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QUOTES AND SONG LYRICS.
You've Got a Friend in Me
You've got a friend in me.
You've got a friend in me.
When the road looks rough ahead,
And you're miles and miles from your nice warm bed.
You just remember what your old pal said.
Boy, you've got a friend in me.
Yeah, you've got a friend in me.
You've got a friend in me.
You've got a friend in me.
If you've got troubles, and I got 'em too.
There isn't anything I wouldn't do for you.
If we stick together we can see it through,
Cause you got a friend in me.
Yeah, you got a friend in me.
Some other folks might be a little bit smarter than I am.
Bigger and stronger too.
Maybe, but none of them will ever love you the way I do,
It's me and you, boy.
And as the years go by,
Our friendship will never die.
You gonna see it's our destiny.
You got a friend in me.
You got a friend in me.
Yeah, you got a friend in me.
'In good times, in bad times I'll be on your side forever more, that's what friends are for'
'Don't be dismayed at goodbyes. A farewell is before you can meet again. And meeting again after a moment or a lifetime is certain for those who are friends' Richard Bach
'Thats what a friend is for, when your lost in darkness and searching for the light, to help you through those lonely nights, when everything around you fails just hold out your hand, and i'll come running, thats what a friend is for.' Marty Keith
'The times when we would play about,
The way we used to scream and shout
We never dreamed you'd go your own sweet way.
Look for the rainbow in every storm,
Find out for certain, loves gonna be there for you,
You'll always be someones baby
Goodbye my friend
I know you're gone,
you said you're gone although I can still feel ya here
Its not the end
Gotta keep it strong before the pain turns into fear.' Spice Girls
'Don't want to leave, but we know sometimes it's better to go. Somehow I know we'll meet again, not sure quite where and I don't know just when you're in my heart, so until then, smile, don't want to cry saying goodbye.' The Muppets
'A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart, and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words.'
'Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow.
Don't walk behind me, I may not lead.
Walk beside me and be my friend.'
'Friendship: a building contract you sign with laughter and break with tears'
'It's the friends you can call up at 4am that matter'
'Friendship that flows from the heart cannot be frozen by adversity, as the water that flows from the spring cannogt congeal in winter.'
'Best friends are like diamonds, precious and rareFalse friends are like leaves, found everywhere.'
'We are all angels with only one wing...we can fly only embracing each other'
'Time isn't what makes a friendship last...It's love and devotion that keeps the tie between souls'
'Gems may be precious, but friends are priceless'
i'll post pictures next time. =)
'Friendship is the golden thread that ties all hearts together'
'Friendship is what gets you through the bad times and helps you enjoy the good times'
'Friends are angels following you through life'
'The most beautiful discovery that true friends can make is that they can grow separately without growing apart'
'How lucky I am to have known someone who was so hard to say goodbye to'
'I don't remember how we happened to meet each other. I don't remember who got along with whom first. All I can remember is all of us together...always'
'A friend will be there for you when things are good...but a TRUE friend will be there for you when things are good and also when things are very bad...and just when it feels like you will never smile again...she can put a smile on your face with just with a hug'
'There is no distance too great between friends, for love gives wings to the heart'
'I believe in Angels, the ones that heaven sendsI believe in Angels, but i call them my best friends'
'We laughed until we had to cry.We gave love,right down to our last goodbye.We were the bestwe thought we'd ever be Just you and me,for just a moment... '
'Remember that every good friend was once a stranger' i remembered the 1st day of secondary 1 life. i was just sitting behind BERNICE AND YANJUN. :)
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Thursday, October 18, 2007
heez. can u imagine: father come back home, sister crying. DOTS. lols. it's less than 5h back from home and im already having this kind of life. sighs. wo ren ming le. zhen de.
wells. school was fun, enjoyed them a whole lot. LOVE MY FRIENDS!!! LOLS hmms. Miss Lim didn't come for maths lesson, but she gave us work to do>.< haha it was kinda cool; 9 of us cramming around a table to copy the answers. haha bernice read them out while writing, YJ was grasping every word she said, and me and mandy copied from her and YL. haha THAT'S WHAT I CALLED A HAPPY FAMILY! went to cwp for lunch, then realised my brocolli bake rice was GONE!!! LOLS nvm there's still pomodoro... more cheap! AND I FINALLY GET TO DRINK MY OREO COFFEE! it's been a long time since i drank those. hmms. Wwent back to school for chinese dunno what thing. saw that movie by YJ they all... and made me wanna cry aagin. LOLS even mdm huang say it was great. BERNICE SORRY I FORGOT TO TAKE YOUR BOOK, AND THANKS CUIPING FOR TAKING THE BOOK. BYE. im emo again. WOOTS.
wells. school was fun, enjoyed them a whole lot. LOVE MY FRIENDS!!! LOLS hmms. Miss Lim didn't come for maths lesson, but she gave us work to do>.< haha it was kinda cool; 9 of us cramming around a table to copy the answers. haha bernice read them out while writing, YJ was grasping every word she said, and me and mandy copied from her and YL. haha THAT'S WHAT I CALLED A HAPPY FAMILY! went to cwp for lunch, then realised my brocolli bake rice was GONE!!! LOLS nvm there's still pomodoro... more cheap! AND I FINALLY GET TO DRINK MY OREO COFFEE! it's been a long time since i drank those. hmms. Wwent back to school for chinese dunno what thing. saw that movie by YJ they all... and made me wanna cry aagin. LOLS even mdm huang say it was great. BERNICE SORRY I FORGOT TO TAKE YOUR BOOK, AND THANKS CUIPING FOR TAKING THE BOOK. BYE. im emo again. WOOTS.
Monday, October 15, 2007
when can school start?!?!?! im really gonna rot at home seh. there's nothing to do, except watching tv and playing the com, which my mother HATES me to do. wth. i have nothing else to do except this. sianz. and the foul mood my mother have all day and night is not really helping. sighs. i really wan go school. dreading the holidays. im really gonna rot at home during the holidays. ARGH! BORED BORED BORED.
Thursday, October 11, 2007
WHEES. EMO POST ON THE WAY. empty. this is how i feel. VERY EMPTY. what's thepoint of art fest? whats the point of so many solid hours of "singing" when i can't even enjoy singing. it just doesn't feel like a... passion any more. and i hate choir. i detest it. i just dont know whats the point of drilling so much into this stupid arts fest, and just for the attendance, to get some stupid CCA points if i dont enjoy it anymore? it just doesn't feel right. and i am NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO CHOIR TMR AT ALL. what's the point? 26h after choir and it's choir AGAIN?! there's just no point. i dont feel like singing or whatever anymore. the feeling and passion and whatever i ahd the previous time wasn't here with me anymore. i just feel nothing about the whole choir, singing, acapella, arts fest business anymore.
"you are the team, the team doesn't exist without you. " yea. it's somewhat right. but our pillar of strength, somewhat our FOUNDATION is gone. miss choo's gone. so whats the point then? i dread choir tmr. and i wonder what songs are we going to sing again. i dont feel like performing for arts fest. and I DONT CARE ABOUT THE POINTS. sighs. i believe only miss choo knows how to make full use of tomorrow's 4hours. our choir is only at it's best under miss choo's guidance. cherish. yes. again. i dont think i cherished the times with miss choo as our instructor. yes. everyone takes things they have for granted. and will only learn to treasure after it's all gone. yea. and im gonna treasure the times we had. and will have. choir. sighs. mission impossible? i wouldn't dare to think about things.
annd. setting aside family, and whatever, THE ROYAL FAMILY HOLDS ALOT OF IMPORTANCE TO ME. HAHA i dont know why. but i just felt like ssaying it. so that we can treasure each other more? hmms. I HOPE. friends.
"True friendship is seen through the heart not through the eyes." thanks huangzu. and other related friends. YES IT'S YOU YOHANNIS. >.< yes. i felt it. or let's say i've SEEN it.
"you are the team, the team doesn't exist without you. " yea. it's somewhat right. but our pillar of strength, somewhat our FOUNDATION is gone. miss choo's gone. so whats the point then? i dread choir tmr. and i wonder what songs are we going to sing again. i dont feel like performing for arts fest. and I DONT CARE ABOUT THE POINTS. sighs. i believe only miss choo knows how to make full use of tomorrow's 4hours. our choir is only at it's best under miss choo's guidance. cherish. yes. again. i dont think i cherished the times with miss choo as our instructor. yes. everyone takes things they have for granted. and will only learn to treasure after it's all gone. yea. and im gonna treasure the times we had. and will have. choir. sighs. mission impossible? i wouldn't dare to think about things.
annd. setting aside family, and whatever, THE ROYAL FAMILY HOLDS ALOT OF IMPORTANCE TO ME. HAHA i dont know why. but i just felt like ssaying it. so that we can treasure each other more? hmms. I HOPE. friends.
"True friendship is seen through the heart not through the eyes." thanks huangzu. and other related friends. YES IT'S YOU YOHANNIS. >.< yes. i felt it. or let's say i've SEEN it.
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
hellos~ FINALLY~ END OF EXAMS. PHEW. today's literature paper was.. er. hmms. i dont know. hope for the best? i dont quite care about this subject... so... ya. after exams we didn't go makan straight away... YJ have this meeting with hu lao shi, mel and LM have to go this Suzhou exchange briefing. we waited for YJ la... haha SO LONG~ then we went to CWP wait for all the shops to open and blah3/ shop around at more than words, as it was the only shop open at the whee hours of the late morning. LOLS! Gelare was open and we went to sit down while waiting for mel and LM.
wow have never ate Gelare for so long already. today was really the right time. after exams, TUESDAY: 1/2 PRICE FOR ICE-CREAM WAFFLES. but i was really tempted to eat the pastas there too. i also found out there's this Vegetarian sandwich which looks REAL NICE, and this cream mushroom pasta which i think i can eat... but it's not cheap la, honestly. anyone treat me??? HAHA. decided our flavours and blah3. i was sharing a large one with Shuhui at first, but since she and Mandy don't want the whip cream, YL and me shared lor. ate a new flavour. but i forgot what it is. LOLS/ i think i can just eat the waffle and be happy the whole day... LOLS the ice-cream was somewhat redundant COS THE WAFFLE WAS REALLY VERY NICE!!! WOOTS!!! i had a feeling of eating their american cheesecake too... haha the last time i ate was with Yohannis. SIGHS. i just love reminicing the past... the EVER WONDERFUL PAST. they decided to but bubble tea, and me bernice mandy and YJ went to buy the birthday pressie for our dearest YL~ happy advanced birthday to YUEN LAM!!!
then went to YL's house la. LOLS 1st time we went to YL's house solely for PLAYING. woots! finally! muahahah!!! watched secret again/ haha ended up with everyone crying their hearts out. BOOHOO!!! lols! I CRIED TOO! >.< _=" oh">
wow have never ate Gelare for so long already. today was really the right time. after exams, TUESDAY: 1/2 PRICE FOR ICE-CREAM WAFFLES. but i was really tempted to eat the pastas there too. i also found out there's this Vegetarian sandwich which looks REAL NICE, and this cream mushroom pasta which i think i can eat... but it's not cheap la, honestly. anyone treat me??? HAHA. decided our flavours and blah3. i was sharing a large one with Shuhui at first, but since she and Mandy don't want the whip cream, YL and me shared lor. ate a new flavour. but i forgot what it is. LOLS/ i think i can just eat the waffle and be happy the whole day... LOLS the ice-cream was somewhat redundant COS THE WAFFLE WAS REALLY VERY NICE!!! WOOTS!!! i had a feeling of eating their american cheesecake too... haha the last time i ate was with Yohannis. SIGHS. i just love reminicing the past... the EVER WONDERFUL PAST. they decided to but bubble tea, and me bernice mandy and YJ went to buy the birthday pressie for our dearest YL~ happy advanced birthday to YUEN LAM!!!
then went to YL's house la. LOLS 1st time we went to YL's house solely for PLAYING. woots! finally! muahahah!!! watched secret again/ haha ended up with everyone crying their hearts out. BOOHOO!!! lols! I CRIED TOO! >.< _=" oh">
Thursday, October 04, 2007
I'VE ADDED NEW PHOTOS. SCROLL DOWN. XD 
more next time. have to go YL's to study! xD
hellos~ wondering why i have time to post? sighs. bad thing happened. that's why i HAVE the time to actually crap here. about 3 more papers to go. JIAYOUS! wahh math... i dread the results so much. wells. came to crap about friday. so. ya. err.
friday. had loads of fun after school at YL's house. we weren't studying but having pillow fights at YL's room la. haha so fun. Shuhui came too. i think she's the reason why we had so much fun. Bernice dunno tie hair how many times le lor. haha. then we played twister. i so suck at that game. Boon Yain keep blocking my way lor. >.<
friday. had loads of fun after school at YL's house. we weren't studying but having pillow fights at YL's room la. haha so fun. Shuhui came too. i think she's the reason why we had so much fun. Bernice dunno tie hair how many times le lor. haha. then we played twister. i so suck at that game. Boon Yain keep blocking my way lor. >.<
more next time. have to go YL's to study! xD____________________________________________________________________
more pictures from my phone... o_O
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